I'm in senior portfolio this year and we had to bring in our old portfolios and boy I don't maintain one I was caught way of guard

So I had to show what is basically garbage as far as a professional portfolio is concerned

And we had to show them publicly and I have apparently no artistic voice and I said all this bullshit about doing tweening after college because its an entry level shit job

And the only response was "you haven't done any animation tho?" and I just ????????? I guess not but like its not like any animation is offered here?????

I know I should be doing this on my own but I'm just.. Embarrassed.

Which I shouldn't be surprised by but this is too much for day one

Day one, lets tell you how much crippling work this class will be and then parade your hastily improvised portfolios in front of everybody and pick them apart

I know I sound butthurt because criticism but... Like they're right at the end of the day. Its the way this class period was structured that is overwhelming and stressing me

Except for the artistic voice thing? I don't understand at all what she is going for when telling me that because I've received that note twice from the same person and she will not explain it

Are my cartoon girls too much like.... Someone else's cartoon girls....?

/hugs

I hate it when someone gives criticism but then refuses to explain what they mean

how...is that even remotely helpful?

what are you supposed to do with that?

I mean at the end of the day I'm the asshole here for being unprepared but

Idk I'm just shaken

The worst part is the "what is your dream? How do you become a leader? " um... I.... Don't?

My "dream" is to continue to survive and maybe enjoy my time doing it?

I'm not a leader. I don't want to be. I've never been.

I am and want to be a worker. Its easy, its relaxing, it makes me happy.

This one class period is overwhelming me so much I'm half convinced to drop out and get a trade or an office job

I also notice a... Let's say bias to the graphic design work? None of them really have their work accused of lacking a creative voice or being too similar to a preexisting style

Maybe every one of the graphic designers are more talented than every one of the illustrators in this class?

Nah I'm pretty sure it's bias

Also you're right, that's WAY too much for day one?

All I know is that I'm ready to have a long car cry

I'm sorry. :c

I’m sorry, Ainsley...