who's ready for a life break? it's me. ya gurl.

it hurts him to breathe. they're trying to figure out what's wrong and pneumonia is up at the top of that list.

Oh fuck. Sending all my hopes your way, that he recovers well and soon.

no official diagnosis yet but I'm getting really sick of life putting its stiletto heel into my foot I tell you what

thanks fam. I think that this is just the closest I can go as far as talking about it.

I'm exhausted. and trying to figure out how I'm gonna do this with my brother as far as making sure dad is taking care of himself.

or if he needs help or...I just feel. like I'm not doing enough. he went here last night, contacted my brother both times instead of me and it's probably because I'm more emotional than my brother

and I just...idk. i want to be here. but I feel like if I'm emotional he won't let me in initially.

he'll just. wait until it's a little better and then let me know and...I want him to be better but it just. the whole entire situation. dad's cancer, mom's recent passing

I'm just trying to tie myself up to be tough. I feel like I'm trying a metaphorical noose around my neck. bun doesnt know what to do so hes just backed off. I just. I cant focus on anything. I'm anxious all the god damn time. I'm just

tired. I'm tired of not feeling like myself. I just want to be here with dad for him and for my brother and I'm just stuck

Oh, sweetheart... Talk as much or as little as you need, it's okay. It's okay to be tired and hurting, you're so much stronger than you realize, just for making it through everything you have.

Do whatever you need to for yourself and know that we're behind you all the way.

im so so sorry babe