he had 2 gallons of fluid drained from his stomach today. hr lost 20 pounds.

hes in a lit of pain. the doctors are telling us that if the chemo doesn't work...which his body is flat out rejecting...

that theyll make him comfortable. my brother is quitting his job to be able to take care of dad.

the doctor told my brother and I that we should be talking with dad as much as possible, in case this doesnt work. we need to know what his wishes are if they get to a point where they have to keep him alive artificially.

oh jesus ;; squish i'm so sorry

I think I'm in shock. honestly, every time we show up st the hospital, I am in shock. and compressing memories of mom.

it's okay. it's not anyones fault.

it's not anyone's fault and I just. I'm not really sure. I'm not really sure what I'm doing.

yeah but it sucks :< a lot

and the shock is normal, the discombobulation is normal. just. keep doing what you're doing and take each minute as it comes

yeah. I'll do that, I think.

I want my cats. and hugs. and sleep.

oh gosh, honey, I'm so sorry.

But Sammo is right, the shock is extremely normal after what you've been through. Just try to keep on keeping on. Nothing is set in stone yet,

I love you, sweet friend, you and your family are in my prayers.

i'm so sorry hun, please know you're loved and adored

Oh hon I am so, so sorry. I love you.

Oh, love. I'm so sorry.