sitting up, at a computer, feeling good, making therapist appointments....doin' okay today >:C

I've literally spent the last two weeks on the living room, against a couch. laying down. i have left maybe four times total.

1 ER visit (we wound up not going the other day!) two doctors visits, and a trip to the store.

I've been moving around my house today, cleaning, showering, and generally existing. i have an appointment to go get my nails taken care of at some point today or tomorrow because I officially have claws and they're so long, you guys. unrealistically long.

I ate bread and an egg this morning- the heaviest meal I've had in two weeks-- and...just.

breathing. I think the scariest thing about being sick has been not knowing. both parents passed away from sickness, and...it's the first time I've been really sick since mom passed away.

i could text her and get her advice on it. she might have been able to tell me what it was. dad would have said something encouraging, brought something to eat for me. and not knowing what's going on in your body with family medical history on your mind...and not having any family to talk to?

that was...is insane. it's just. unreal. and i'm not there yet.

but i'm hoping with better health on my plate and a therapist i can talk to, I'll get there.

one day at a time.

you guys have been angels. I love you both so much.

We love you, too. Any time you want to talk to someone, just let us know.

squish i love you so so much

We love you, Squish. We're cheering you on.

We love you too, Squish. I hope you feel better soon. And life kinda take the easy street for you also.