first, I...welcome, hi, my name is Squish, and this is my Ted Talk

I got diagnosed with some Weird Shit (TM) and basically have to make something of a lifestyle change now, and...it's stressful. It's rewarding! It's like looking at the cutest puppy ever through a 12" thick wall of glass and THEY'RE JUST WIGGLING WITH EXCITE AND YOU ARE SO CLOSE AND YET SO FAR

my previous diet was hot trash. And I've gone into healthy fits but nothing ever stuck.

and now I do the healthy thing because if I don't I Will Burn Starting With My Heart

I'm taking veganistic options and working out-- starting with 4 days a week and...REALLY I'D LIKE TO DO FIVE. work out, cardio, work out, cardio, work out, cardio.

I worked out today and I am So Sore everything is ouchies >:C B-BUT I AM FEELING GOOD

like...no heartburn. Took a shower. HAD SOME RLY GOOD HUMMUS LIKE

EDAMAME HUMMUS? very good. 20/10.

i have veggie snacks and stuff for oatmeal and cereal

I'm trying Cashew Ice Cream ?/??

idk. i'm just. it's always this good when you first start out. But our roomies are out of the house this week and I'm nervous as heck about introducing them to these changes because they either are With It or say "yEaH!!!" and go get chick fil a and pizza and eat on the couch

guys, I've never had a more strong urge for pizza. i want it. i want it so bad. AND MAN, I WILL HAVE IT WHEN I'M FEELING 100%

EVEN IF IT'S JUST ALFREDO PIZZA (WHICH IS STILL A+++)

a month ago, I was 259 pounds, and now I'm 239.

for my height and a couple of other factors, that makes me obese. Which I've always just kind of...accepted.

curls around

the first 15 pounds off was terrifying, because i wasn't dieting, and i wasn't working out. I was in hardcore Grief mode...and I wasn't eating because I didn't know what was wrong with me.

but the last 5 pounds has been drinking water, eating food that isn't greasy and fatty...and it's been good. My weight management app (Noom) and Fitbit were like "OMG DUDE LOOK AT YOU DROPPIN' SOME BODDY MASS HECK YEAH"

pistachioed !!!!

regardless, I...idk. for the first t ime since this all started, I feel like I'm gonna make it. you know? Sometimes you just have to tell yourself that it's okay to make it through a moment. I feel like I'm gonna make it through the moments to come, too.

I hope everyone else is having a good friday!!! ALSO

IF YOU HAVEN'T TRIED JICAMA BEFORE....you should.

it kind of reminds me of a cross between a potato and a watermelon.

YAAAAASSSSS

I got cucumbers, but they're the big ones...I'll have to look for baby cucumbers!!

do they come in jars? Do they look like baby pickles??

i;'m a veggie dipper at heart, and finding that edamame hummus was probably my saving grace today...but I wanted to slice the cucumbers up and make a little sandwich. BUT I HAVE ALSO NEVER HAD THEM WITH PEPS

i will try this. and search for baby cucumbers.

UPDATE: I HAD AVOCADO TOAST WITH CUCUMBERS, SALT, AND PEPPER

i....that was so good...

GOOD LUCK BABE IM PROUD OF YOU

mmmmmmMMMMM

i really need to do more of this but... havent kjdfhgs i really need to get on this ball too

avocado =3=

it's hard to do!!! The only reason I think I'm sugar coating this is because I am being poked with a sharp sword on a plank over shark infested water. but when you have the option to eat whatyever you want and it's faster and easier...man. i get it.

i have the luxury of being at home and not working, so...there's a little bit of time to figure this all out. but. when i tell you that i feel as if i have been physically punched by cravings, i am not hajsdfhkahe IT'S REAL

at your own pace, on your time, sweet friend. whenever you're ready, avocado toast is ready for you >:C

i mean, im also... diabetes rofl

but yknow. hhhhshks medical bad,

aksjdfhkj :C yeah. Bun said "I'm gonna intermittent diet!" which is...according to him, eating within a 4 hour window every day. and just water every other hour of the day.

and he was like "You eat 2500 calories in four hours! Do that instead!!" because veganisms frighten him and YET

I CANNOT EAT WHATEVER I WANT ANYWAY

/SLAPS HIM WITH THE LIST OF UNEATABLE ITEMS