i am up and down physically. Slept wonky last night and...f-four hours doesn't feel like a good amount of time bUT I JUST LIVE HERE AND AT LEAST I AM BREATHING AND WALKING AND EXISTING

this morning we had people here who are redoing our bathroom and so I've been...aaaaround the house? I BOUGHT MY ENDGAME TICKETS TODAY >:C AND

I went to the store and got milk and sweet potatoes >:C and vegetables. and there is a cute lil' sweetie potato in the oven with my name on it.

You know what else is sweet?

You.

i have been sticking to healthy eating-- except yesterday when i went to panda express because i had no groceries at home and was hurting in the way that one hurts when acid in their tummy over-reacts and gets angry :C

... >:C EchoDoctor NO U

:C i have weird bouts of anxiety, but...we're done with the house. so that's been pretty nice, actually.

it's like i was swallowed up in it for a month-- a month of dealing with everything that mom and dad left behind, and sorting through metric hecktons of memories and small things and pictures...

so. >:C it isn't over, but it feels like I got to take a big step in the right direction.

lowering the stress i feel is gonna have a good physical effect on my body and god, I just...wanna feel normal again, man. 8C

i can't lift heavy things or bend over or do a lot of things I could do before. i'm scared of going back to work, but I think the distraction will be really good. and...YEAH >:C

I AM ON EPISODE 17 OF SEASON 2 OF CRITICAL ROLE AND I'M JUST IN LOVE

I also have taz on the backburner, but I've been told it's better so I JUST WANNA CATCH UP WITH CRIT ROLE BEFORE I GET INTO IT

hobbies recently have included building houses in the sims 4, leaving my TV on to play some good chillstep, and opening the windows in my bedroom to let in that good, sweet fresh air.

i am also stalked by my cats as I AM THE ACCESSIBLE AND LOVING HUMAN AND BUN IS THE FEEDER. they're perplexed. life continues to be difficult.

squish i love you always forever

one good thing in all the chaos is that I inherited all of mom's soft blankets. there are about 12 of them and I have one on almost constantly >:C and...yes, it's very good.

ecojak !!!! I'M LOVE YOU ALSO SWEET FRIEND >:C FOREVER

you're the best squish ever forever okay you're so strong and i'm so proud of you

>:C ilu sweet friend you are a good and precous bean

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