Went to the drs for the first time in aaaaaaaaaages for a full physical and stuff. Had bloodwork done, everything is exceedingly normal. Had a pap done, perfectly normal minus a yeast infection (that I didn't know I had).

Got a pill for that, got back on the birth control because I have a boyfriend and tho I adore his face, not looking to get preggo quite yet (and us being together would require a country move for one of us).

And I got myself some cute barrettes, some earrings, some cute sparkly rings, makeup, etc. Self care shit. And I feel...good. Really good. And it's weird. But nice. And I'm happy. Happier than I've been in ages.

I like your happy.

And my anxiety that was building up and coming out in waves of "idgaf" and huge bursts of stress-related cleaning and/or accidentally sleeping all day? Gone. TOTALLY GONE.

allbutspeechless: Me too. Like. I guess I really didn't realize how numb I was to everything. And how much I was floating through life. I feel alive.