and like, as with most people with ADHD and/or who had no caretaker as children, I need to have a deadline to get the motivation I need to accomplish tasks.

Which is why, even without my tailbone injury, I have a hard time working out

I do it

but it frustrates me

and in talking to her, I realized that knowing what time to start isn't the problem; it's knowing when I get to be DONE.

And it's like that for everything; if I know when something needs to be or will be finished, I handle it so much better. Social events, deadlines, art submissions, doing my makeup, showering, walking the dog: knowing what time it needs to be done by helps me do through with it.

So I did the simplest thing I never fucking considered: I set an alarm, and said I'd stop my workout when the alarm went off.

And then I did my whole workout.

with no complaint.

And I actually finished within 2 minutes of the alarm >.>

I told all this to Mike and he was like "Oh you mean setting a schedule?"

When someone tells me to set a schedule, that means "Create tasks and what time to start them", so...no.

that's the thing that gets me overwhelmed.

It's also the thing that upsets me about going out with him, because I know it's going to take anywhere from 4-6 hours, and he keeps adding activities, and then keeps wanting more attention, and if he just told me what time I can be home and in my room playing Skyrim or painting or fucking around in my pajamas, I'd be so much less stressed and better--

able to focus on what we're doing while we're out?

Anyway. So this therapist is helping a lOT.

Annnnd exercise wise, I did my routine even though I had to modify for my tailbone. I couldn't do lunges, but I'm able to do deadlifts again.

And I'm officially down 25 lbs today! Which means....!!!

IT'S CREEPER DAY

HMMMMM

also I'm back in Old Navy standard sizes and while that doesn't mean MUCH

it means my clothes are 50% cheaper

>.>

AHHHHHHH