what a 3-month period I've been thru. i know that there are still many things I can be grateful for. there are many people who are more suffering. it's just all of these things felt too much for my current capacity
is that it? my peak performance has passed so I wont grow more as a person I wanted to be? so it's time to forget about myself and fully devote all my life and attention for the kids?
Everyone has ups and downs in their life. Who knows that it wasn’t your peak yet. Who knows that the best is yet to come. To be fair, we don’t live for ourselves, do we? 
You can be good at works and also devoted to your children, you’ll know how to balance it...try to enjoy the process
kaghif, i dunno whether this oot or not but this posting speaks a lot to me. i hope it speaks a lot to you too 
A Love That Cancer Can’t Kill - Human Parts
A Love That Cancer Can’t Kill - Human Parts
jalani satu2 gif. ga gampang, tapi bisa. butuh waktu itu pasti. jgn ragu utk cerita ya.
Jangan ragu utk cerita dan minta tolong ketika merasa udah gak sanggup
Mungkin ini lebih ke jangka panjang ya gif, mungkin lo bisa mempertimbangkan cari kerja di perusahaan yang bisa full time remote. It does wonder for parenting. Happy to discuss more
follow through. make your dreams come true. don't give up the fight. you will be alright. cause there's no one like you in the universe. 
slow down gak papa. Bukan berarti ga bisa mencapai hal hal lebih tinggi. Timeline tiap orang beda-beda. Take your time, you Will achieve it in time 
thanks all!