today i woke up super mad and idk why and i'm so annoyed that i have to LoOk iNteRnaLlY now to find out like fuck

everything is pissing me off and i'm sure it's the grief

but also like JUST FUCKIN LET ME HAVE ONE OK DAY JFC

work has been stressing me the fuck out because as soon as i figured out like 25% of what we're doing we're on a different part of functionality

and this stupid part of me that gives up when the going gets tough is going off but i'm trying to like tell it to shut the fuck up because therapy or whatever but also i just want to give up!!!!

i'm confused and lost and annoyed and i don't!! know!! what!! i'm!! doing!!