... you know, i've been checking in every month but i honestly don't actually know if i'm still in anymore
then i remember that my journals wouldn't have access if i wasn't still in so there's that
hey gail you are amazing
i'm making a firm decision on tuesday whether to stay or go because i think waiting around is doing more harm than good for my mental health at this point
if it helps, you are not the only one who is just checking in and not doing much of anything
like i was having nerves opening plurk just to tell you guys this and it's 100% because i've done nothing but be irresponsible with everyone's time, which is whose fault? (POINTS AT MYSELF)
what Gail said too. I've been sick all summer and barely tagged, and a lot of check-ins have just been big ol' shrugs
cacopheny: god i am... not actually happy to hear that bc i love the game and i want people to be active... but you know that's just, uh, me being a part of the problem at this point

but it is sort of reassuring that we're all together in this shitty brainfunk year
do whatever feels best!! but don't feel like you're the only one who's been like 🙃 for a few months
KabochaKitsune bro... even you? god i'm so sorry, i just wanted things to be fun
nobody would be upset with you either way, trust me

it's been a hell of a fuckin year for all of us, and I think everyone is struggling a bit
the game is still truckin' along, it's just... very small now XD we're in it for the long haul. if you wanna stay in it for the long haul too, you're certainly welcome, even if you only tag like once a month, or every other month, or whatever
so like if you decide to go, that's understandable, you're stressed, you gotta do what's best for you! but if you stay, we'd be happy to have you, even if you can't always tag us
we've got a lot of handwavey going on. but also yeah, if you need to go for your mental health, then no one will be mad
sad maybe, but not mad <3 this year has been shit
god i don't want to be a once a month tagger!! i wanna be active i wanna be here for the bitter end

but you're all right, i do have to like... make sure i'm taking care of me first so i don't end up like this in another six months
yeah the weather this summer has kicked my ass..... I've been either sleeping 14+ hours or sleeping in fits and spurts and being braindead in between regardless
other health factors too but that's been the big one
also!!!!!!! if you decide to drop and then change your mind and app back in, that's an option
Sora can wander back in out of the woods like 8|
KabochaKitsune something something staying indoors and losing the circadian rhythm we all need to be f u n c t i o n a l
honestly i kind of feel like that would need to be the plan
sora would just be channelling all of us
but i don't want to plan too far ahead just in case i... do end up biting the bullet
also LAUGHS I AM DISABLED WITH A FUNKY CIRCADIAN RHYTHM ANYWAY, it's been storm pressure systems and temps and humidity bearing down on my joints and nerves and making my sinuses act like it's allergy season. RIP me
I mean I've just been kind of handwaving Sora/Soldat interactions so pretending he's been just kind of about is fine
yo sorry i went back to jersey for a hot second and i had to stay in my place bc there was this weird super virus (and also an alien invasion)
cacopheny HONESTLY that is more than i could have asked for from you and i am so grateful
i'm going to check in, then be back on tuesday after making a few arrangements irl. that is the goddamn plan and i have to stick to it or else i'm probably going to go even more batshit about this than i am and i do NOT want to be in a place where i'm avoiding all of you because i can't admit to myself i'm shit with responsibility
i like you guys way too much to keep doing this
OKAY, checking in, i will be back in 48 hours, i am going to tape "YOUR FRIENDS LOVE YOU AND WANT YOU TO COME BACK" on my forehead so i don't get anxious about this again
if you do stick around, Soldat has one extra room at the B&B now if Sora would like to come live with him and Misty and Pudding and Javert, there
please do
MAWIIIIIII your timing is remarkable, i was just thinking either today or yesterday that it had been a bit and was wondering if i should follow you on twitter even though i never use it lmao
i'm sorry to hear that shit's been bad but yeah you are absolutely not alone in it, i'm a hot mess atm
cacopheny HOLY SHIT!! THE DREAM oh my god i want this so bad
could be a good coming-back post, too >.> moving in at the B&B...
my motivation is rp friendships
IT WOULD... I WOULD LIKE THAT.......
god i could not do rp games anymore my mental health and energy is just shot
journeys HI ABI clutches your hands holy shit it has been a year!! 2020 sure has been something huh

Pudding and Sora weird teenage housemates
ecojak LKSJDF honestly i'm only trying bc i love tnn like.. a whole fucking bunch and i REALLY wanna finish the damn game off

honestly otherwise i'd just hang out on plurk every once in a while and try to finish work
TEACH HER TO TEENAGER, SORA
okay if my strength flags at any point tomorrow i need to remember that i need to get sora back to his dead people family... this is so important to me
Masaomi taught her emotes!!
HE WILL!! HE'S A MENACE AND SHE WILL LEARN like probably how to dab or smth
i come on plurk anyway just to shitpost even tho i have not done proper art or dev in like................ months,
ecojak hey....... puts my hand on ur shoulder.... son........ i validate you...... i see u and you're doing great
Pudding dabbing is the best image I've been gifted with all day
plurk is not valid obviously
can we go out for ice crem mom............
KabochaKitsune SHE IS GOING TO TEEN SO GOOD! IT'LL BE GREAT!! i promise i swearrrr i'm going to make my best effort to make this happen
ecojak my son.... every day is ice crem day....
okay im out i am setting an alarm for myself for tuesday laterrrrr
mawiiiii!!!!! welcome back 2 plurk!
i'm always glad to hear from u even if it's a lil update. especially in the midst of HELL YEAR lol
(can you believe there's a timeline where we would've met each other irl like two weeks ago)
im so glad to hear from u weh