Roxy posted something about it and I related so hard and I just wanna......breathe into it a bit

I was gone. for months. I have this amazing group of friends online and I didn't realize how deeply I connect with some of them and...I wasn't here?? for months?? and I obviously have missed quite a bit.

no one is actively being rude. no one is telling me to heck off. no one is trying to invalidate me. but...man. anxiety is wild and rude.

could have an amazing morning, extra hugs from bun, cats sleeping on me, watching Celeste for the first time (which is amazing, by the way!!) and...

reach out to someone and get ignored. not ignored. just brushed over?? idk. >:C if I don't get this out of my head ill probably spend the whole day staring at the ceiling and being upset about it

but a spritz of love and acceptance my dude

I am so happy when people tell me that they're happy to see me. or that they want to hang out with me. people who laugh with me. and...I'm bad at reaching out. and I see other people having fun and wish I could join in. and there is so very little stopping me

but my anxiety and my brain. rockin into overtime. don't intrude. don't just put yourself in there. nobody cares. you know??

I’m sorry I didn’t respond right away Squish that plurk was going a mile a minute, and I’m still working as well. But I saw your comment and it made me smile. Thank you, sweet friend, I love you so much

oh, sweet roxy-- nono, please don't apologize

I’m sorry if I made you feel the exact same way I’m feeling right now. I didn’t mean to

heck. no. nono. I just. I'm sorry. it wasn't that you weren't responding fast enough

I just have a big. I just. anxiety. im sorry.

it isn't you. its definitely me. please don't feel bad. I didn't want to clutter your plurk up so I just started talking here.

:c okay you know I worry though. I love you fren