JovPinpin
wonders
how shiny happy people get to be so happy. everything they have for other people and for themselves are just so nice, clean, and happy. most times i wonder, can i have that too? i wish i could have that.
why is it so hard to be just happy?
i just want to be happy
why is that so hard?
why does my thoughts always have to be dark and twisty and bad? why is that all i have? why is that all i am?
why can't i be happy too?
when am i going to be happy? when is it going to be my turn to be happy?
why do other people always look like they got it easy?
will i get it if i wanted it enough?
maybe i just didn't want it enough...
yeah it's most probably that sigh
maybe i've gotten so comfortable with dark, twisty and bad that those are all i expect on things, on others, and on myself
yeah that's most probably it
why not try to change something?
^ i second this