in which I Am Very Sorry About This Man

just. you ever just write tags just like UGH MY CHARACTER IS INFURIATING AND MISSING EVERY POINT (i know the answer is yes sssh it's rhetorical)

because like

on one hand here he is just like "stop acting like everything's impossible! things can change! you can be a good person!!"

and then looks at himself and is like lol no i'm pretty much definitely dead at SOME point, several people have told me that i'm going to get myself killed with the way i keep putting everyone else first, and i have decided i'm cool with that

he's not. actively trying to become dead but he's just accepted that it's going to happen because he's just Less Important so if he dies it's fine

while... loudly protesting that behavior in others

but at the same time, like... AS MUCH AS I WOULD LIKE HIM TO HAVE A REVELATION AND REALIZE HEY MAYBE HE'S IMPORTANT AND HIS HAPPINESS IS WORTHWHILE,

unfortunately canon needs to happen post-SF and Rean needs to trigger the apocalypse due to a mixture of having zero sense of self-preservation and consistently sticking himself in curse's way and utter grief

which means i can't actually let anyone talk him out of it?

on one hand, the CS made fun timeline shenanigans, on the other, we made fun TIMELINE SHENANIGANS and now we have to keep the timeline intact

"we have to" ok it's more I Care About This And I Want To but. details!!

anyway yes this was my 4:30am rambling about 1 Stupid Boy thanks for coming

I MEAN

he won't remember SF until the end of canon

so I think you could have any character development you want

at least if we go with everyone regains memories at the same time post CS4 plan

THAT IS TRUE

pero also it took him past the end of his own series to realize hey maybe i should Not die so

lutha is so tired

rean he tried u_u

he really did

and my heart breaks for this trash boy

did he try well, questionable

he really did

look it's still worth points in Elliot's book

just like Lutha. You experienced the terrible frustrating headache of trying to convince Rean to stop sacrificing himself

if that's not honorary class vii status idk what is

hfasjdso RIGHT

elliot just like no lectures this time just solidarity

man he wasn't even aiming for that he just wanted to try and attempt a fury to fury talk between two bros

hes been working on Rean's self-worth for YEARS

rean just stabbed him in the gut and lutha was like "well that hurt and I no longer trust myself to be civil so back into the box it goes"

I hate him

I love rean he is so complicated

even as I sit here like AAAA about the thread it was very good thank u u_u

he needed therapy and he got sent to sword school instead... this is what happens smh

IT WAS VERY GOOD my heart is broken u_u and that is all i ever aim for

he needed therapy and he got sent to sword school instead.

THE WORST PART IS

SWORD SCHOOL WAS PROBABLY THE CLOSEST THING TO THERAPY IN EREBONIA

me just reeling at the irony of rean going "I'm here if you want to talk" and lutha attempting to do that and it still being turned on its head dramatic comedy of errors

RIGHT

unfortunately! rean is fucking stupid! and if you want to say things you need to say them Explicitly and Outright or he will fuck it all up

I was crying on yuff because that was my literal plan for the following tag had rean not. been rean.

rean is smart about so many things but a complete and utter dipshit in others

so I'm just like nooooooooooooooooo

HE'S SO DUMB!!!

its fine lutha is also an idiot so

the idiocy multiplied and Alas

wheezes YES THAT

lutha just has so many hangups on being vulnerable so by the time he actually psyched himself up to actually be more literal when it was obvious rean wasn't getting it, rean got fed up

I'm so sad

ris will... probably begin poking and prodding soon to try to find out More because she's a fiend for Information but we'll see if that goes anywhere or if Lutha just picks her up by the collar and deposits her elsewhere and goes on without her lmfao

she could easily get surface stuff he keeps most other things close to his chest unless I spot a window to hint at things

ris like "how do i ask 'why does the water get you all shaky i mean it's scary but it's not THAT scary' without getting hit"

oh yeah especially after the rean convo he can share that much

but she's also someone who would be very happy to vent her own anger and also be like LET THE HATE FLOW THROUGH YOU with others so. if he ever just wants someone to yell fury at, she is the best/worst choice

Ris

in a previous game, ris listened to someone talk about how they were so angry they wanted to commit genocide and ris was like "sounds like they deserve it tbh"

(fantasy genocide, naturally. tales of symphonia is wild)

lutha is post hate mistakes so

he gets it but also Ouch

ris' idea of morals is "what do the people around me want?" and she goes with that

at the time, mithos wanted people to suffer for half-elven bigotry, so ok cool! sounds like a plan to her

oh no mithos of all peopl

rip

yeah

she has great tastes

he started off as hero!mithos and then slowly got his memories back so he went from being someone who was really kind to ris to... well... Mithos. and at that point ris was already in deep, so morals? what the fuck are those? whatever mithos wants!!

if someone gets ris flustered the best possible course of action is to AVOID THEM

friendship-wise she generally tends to have more hits than misses but with ships? she's done well for herself one time and that was still a screaming nerd with a shotgun

i love rea

n

we should thread...

YES WE SHOULD

all I can imagine is

Lutha: Who are your friends?
Crow: Oh, Rean and Elliot. You met them?
Lutha:
Crow: Wait huh where are you going
Lutha: NOPE.

i mean

fjiodshoisadjfoap

rean and elliot are technically nosier yes but he just doesn't enjoy crows presence right this second

that's Fair

rean and elliot would both even say as much out loud if asked i'm pretty sure

i'm sobbing