hematite u can come cry now

someone please help her, she is having a very bad time

NOOOOOOOO

aww....

i dont like the contrast of these two top levels

very miura of you to make me suffer like this

the tonal whiplash is very good

ty they felt good as i was writing them

i sacrifice the horse made of knees on the altar and the spirit of miura touched me in passing

i can sense it

fuck I have to send someone to help Saturday

Probably Catra

and tomorrow bc I am about to bed

heee!

i was hoping to make people feel that way

all right

im going to find some people to tag with saturday

then im gonna focus on raist tomorrow

or not idk

ahhhh choice paralysis

debating if I can have alloran come in on this and if so how

if you can get the thing to drop saturday she'll pull it together and help fight

/nods
I guess I do have him flying around as a weird delta-shaped tooth monster

bievilerd time
also alloran's maladaptive-in-freedom coping mechanism time

I was thinking the memory effect would be minimal on him because yeerks love making their hosts wallow in bad memories and he can shrug off having terrible decisions and blood thrown at him but! this is a thing that works instead.

i will see that as soon as I am done responding to raistlin and tagging him out

raistlins tag

s

gah

all my typting is, tag now

it's all good

for the record I do actually know the plot twist alloran is building towards re: hork bajir.

alloran: i have done multiple war crimes
saturday: so has basically everyone who ever fought in a war

alloran: no mine are worse

I'm getting a little whiplash going from the war is hell canon to the war can be bad but it can also be a great time with no hard feelings canon

saturday: would you like to hear about the time mages erupted the entire rim of fire to make a political point

(literally in one of the tarma and kethry books they're on one side of a war and a different friendly merc force is on the other, warrl bites up one of their friends for trying to kill kethry, and they all chat about it companionably afterwards)

lmao yikes

shadowrun has some incredible moments in it

also like, saturday's own father is complicit in multiple war crimes, and regular crimes, and has told her about them with a surprsing lack of euphemism

/nods

she wants to be a shadowrunner, she needs to know how this works

it's a rough go all around!

also one time they found out this dude was planning to destroy an entire civilization if he couldn't undo the corruption turning it into a hellhole and the entire party was lie "gasp, horror, murder on sucha mass scale is Wrong"

nd saturday was like "sometimes.... the cleansing fire must burn"

"look it was clearly his last ditch plan if he absolutely could not win"

so she'd probably be cool with alloran saying if he could make the choice again he'd do the same thing over :')

she'd want more details before passing judgement

but she also thinks the hork bajir are right to be incredibly pissed off about it.

both things can be true

that is why war is bad, and you should whenver possible settle things with targeted assassinations and financial influence

"I don't think that's the moral of that story, actually."
"Well I don't see what else it could possibly be."

/laughs
yeah pretty much

(he is gonna say that if toby decides to kill him and succeeds, don't hurt her for it. toby's in an amazingly bad situation)

wahahahaha, nice empty clean inboxc

oh saturday doesn't need to be told that, but, if she knows roughly what happened, maybe she can convince them to chill long enough to Not Die In This Place

Go die back home like sensible people

imagines this nightrender looking like pinhead with all the needle teeth sticking out of it

suddenly realizes that alloran's emotion-singing if it's turned to positivity would probably be effective