Some stuff happened some odd years back and I laid down a firm "we are not friends and I want nothing to do with you"

the person on the receiving end of it has disregarded that request

so my plurk is a little bit on lockdown atm because certain people continue to poke after being told not to touch.

Is lockdown the right word? probably not the right word

feeling kind of not okay but this is subject to change

if you need to talk or anything, i should be up/around for a while

oh jeeze... I'm sorry this is happening to you

I've.... sort of been in a similar boat before and I remember how alarming/uncomfortable that felt. If you need to vent or anything, I'm here to listen.

UGH that is the worst feeling, wishing you all the best, go hermit until things improve

also here if you want to talk. otherwise, this should be a safe space so I hope they get message and back off.

S h a n k. T h e m.

oof

thanks friends! I slept and calmed down and things are okay

I had a bit of A Panic last night and I am not proud of that

honestly I think there is something about people violating your space - physical or otherwise - that just does that, so.

glad you're feeling better!

probably going to keep friends-only for a few more days just to establish more of a line. like a "just because you realized I'm a mod, that doesn't mean you get to treat my plurk like the mod account" line

bc there were a few things that happened over the last week that made me feel kind of like "what made you think I would be okay with you just doing that"

someone was like "I read about this on some public plurks" and it felt like there were ants crawling on me

I am very accustomed to being invisible despite my public setting and do not know what to do with the other side of that

hmm i don't know what happened or who this was about, but tbf there was a lot of information/clarification about the event posted in your last penance plurk that, as far as i know, was not also posted elsewhere

which in itself is kind of unfortunate - i was actually in the process of plotting some 'start to break people free from the au' stuff with a couple people and we would have gone right ahead with it if i hadn't happened to see your plurk and realized it wouldn't work/wasn't allowed

I mean to be fair if I knew people were going to take it in that direction I probably wouldn't have started the discussion complaining about how I wanted to be rping my own characters

would have brought a different energy to that happening in the mod plurk or in a q÷a thread

right, but my point is that the info was (only?) shared on a personal plurk - which i think is the root of the problem, it would have been more accessible for everyone if it was on a modplurk or the event info post

i saw new plot explanations so i hit replurk without really thinking about it, i'm sorry if this contributed to the problem D:

butteredcups: (after a small pause while I try to figure out how to answer in a not-combative way I swear I'm not trying to be combative even if it comes off that way) I guess I didn't see it as being like a formal source of information? it was more of a "oops hope I didn't fuck up the writing of this thing"

and I definitely didn't want to swing over to the mod plurk to be like "um u guys are doing it wrong /pushes up glasses" because THAT wasn't the intent

i think the issue is that people were confused with the initial write-up and the only way to get clarification was on that plurk

and some of the stuff you guys were asking about involved stuff I didn't have answers to

i read the initial write-up and q&a on the event post, and did not realize that people couldn't be de-brainwashed until i read your plurk

and I was over here not thinking that people would assume that or even want it that immediately

and normally this is the part where I sort through all my feelings and say a lot of nothing while I search for the point but now I'm also kind of like "oh my god Jessica stop talking you will dig a hole" which is ultimately why I need a separation between public and private spaces

I THINK. THE POINT IS. I hear what you're saying and also I feel bad and those two things are happening concurrently without one causing the other

continuing to try to keep lights on and not start a fire before the boss is back

but it feels rly smoky and I'm sweating

yeah - i think a clear distinction between personal stuff and mod stuff is the answer here!

i definitely don't mean to add to anything, and i'm sorry boundaries got crossed, but there was definitely info in that plurk that wasn't available elsewhere

I definitely would have clarified if someone had asked ;-; I think we both thought it was obvious and were confused when it wasn't

like I can see where I was like "I put a note at the end of the event saying that it wasn't going to be over in 2 weeks why are they surprised" but I can also see where people were like "oh that line about pulling friends out means they can be OUT out got it"

but now it's a Thing and I was unprepared for how uncharitable some of the language would get

yeah, all of that. I honestly wouldn't even have looked at your post about it had I not just found out you were a mod, bc I like everyone on my timeline but I don't always have spoons to read about all their game thoughts.

the worst of it didn't happen in my plurk but oof I have seen some Takes

that said there's no good reason for someone you've been clear you don't want to talk to to bring themselves into your Plurk about it!

I mean that person has a history of that. I have been doing my best to co-exist in separate corners and every once in a while they show up on the outskirts to be like "ugh I can't believe you're still mad"

just very Alanis Morissette-uninvited.mp4

gross

shoos them