DW RP became a net negative, I wasn't getting anything out of it, there was very little social benefit, and I really wasn't doing more than killing time. Time I could be doing other things.

And the fact that I actually get tempted by comming to plurk, I feel, marks it very firmly as an addiction that I can relapse into.

the only lesson here is, if you have something in your life that effects your life negatively, that is detrimental to you in ways, don't stick with it. I don't care what it is, but I hope ya'all have people in your life who recognize your addiction and tell you, more importantly that you listen.

But at the same time i

I'm glad you folks are having fun.

/headpat

Addiction is no joke and you can get addicted to anything.

I guess I got attached to it because when I started my dad got his cancer diagnosis

aunt died of cancer the same year.

Huh... I had no idea

I never really talked about it.

I didn't realize that was why but I'm glad you recognized it and pulled away

The addiction? Yeah. It took a lot of repeated social defeat and realizing how much time I was actually spending just waiting for tweets and not doing anything.

I know someone who was addicted to video games - MMOs specifically, but it always just made them mad and depressed

and they got away from it and they've done a lot better, too

so I'm happy that you have done what you need to for you

I'm also trying to actually work through the whole attention span issue, with ginko biloba and such so I can focus more on things that matter to me, like writing actual narratives with my characters and creating things, creating art, that matters to me.

I'm sure i could have done that stuff in this space and I

could always do commissions for folks around here if I wanted, but eh...

I hope you find success with that

agreed

keepcalmhyrule: Yeah and I dont want to like ever come off like "RP IS EVIL!!! DONT DO IT!" I mean it's not. It's just a hobby. But...

but it's not good for you specifically

Yeah, exactly.

at least not right now

I RP on dreamwidth with a friend and I somehow got roped into modding an RP server-- Because of course I did. That always happens to me.

I totally understand. I can't do any other social media because of how it affects my feelings of missing things and never catching up.

And it's like, Okay fine but I'm only doing it for stuff I know anything about.

FOMO is a very real anxiety condition

Bugly42: There's actually a study on that

Yes it's FOMO

Fear of missing out

yep

Not sure how you feel about Red pilled youtubers but Aydin Paladin did a entire video on it. I like her because she shows the data and everything. But also Long videos.

it's increasingly prevelent in society year to year

For artists.

Yeah. I found my balance and self talk that keeps me from obsessing but I know it's a balancing act.

Also, just an aside, Red pilled/Bluepilled should never refer to Liberal and conservatives because it's supposed to be a matrix reference.

You can be redpilled on anything.

I'll tell you, that I think that as much as I improved in the later years of my RP time, like playing as Ray

Not so much Shadow because Shadow was sort of experimental, and I actually had to box him into a AU version of him because I was developing him differently on the side and I didn't want the RP versions and the comic version to blend together

If you guys want an update on him at all I'd make a plurk

I thought red pill was the term men who think they're alphas and women need to be treated like separate species used bc they ripped it off from the matrix

Eh. People do what they want

It's supposed to be a direct metaphor and I'd like to keep it that way, I'll ignore the weirdos.

/Moosey slowly realizing he's never going to get to see the end of that one thread.
Aladin 2 end credits

MooseChangerPat: We had threads?

I guess we must have

Its been like 4 years I don't remember

Bugly42: You're right. Honestly I would have benefited from Cognitive/Dialetical therapy 20 years ago

Or just redirection. But LJ/DW RP was a security blacnket, I guess. I never really grew. once you get kicked out of the nest, proverbally speaking...

Also BetterHelp | Professional Therapy With A Licensed Th... isn't that great.

Therapy is something you have to believe in and commit to. You can't change if you don't want to.

Yeah. I'm not sure I got the right therapist either.

I used it after my dad died but he just kind of told me stuff I already knew.

That's a tricky part.

Once my emotional crisis was more or less over, I still have lots of stuff to work on, bad habits, but Its way better.

hmm... I might be thinking of someone else, since the thread I'm thinking of is from 2021

Hehehe, Yeah it was so long ago.

It was time for a change. I just got a new job, I started growing in my art ability, but that's what I gotta focus on now. I appreciate you all for your support and friendship though.

The Chemistry of Addiction Just for interest