shin: i shouldn't push my luck too much
shin, seeing midori be gross at sara: actually you know what,,,
my next tag gunna slay him I'm crying I'm so excited
dsfdgfgd i can't wait to die
it's your turn to die, lint
they're sensitive to the choking bit
ngl to u I forgot sara choked him and cried bc that is how one twin kills the other in the womb... wild
he strangled her too god i should have had her mention that in tag
retcon sara to be doubly uncomfortable with this
STOP HE DOESNT REMEMBER!!!!!!! ANY CHOKING!!!! :3
'maybe they can get haruka to steal his hands' poor girl she's going to go for his fingernails and be so confused
and fdgf YEAH it's just all strangling
if shin strangles midori it can be a triangle
god. he has the scarms. it's possible
shame it wouldn't do anything bc his head doesn't need oxygen but it's possible
gfhgdfd shin and sara's turn to be the infuriatingly vague npcs
im also crying that shin has the best tea here bc he ruined the others
the way that ranger ruined that for them
i knowww crying
ranger the tutorial
I FEEL SO SAD FOR THEM, how dare he do that
he can strange midori when i play his education
ranger really betrayed them like this
they did kinda tell him to fuck off
yeah sorry sara will be a lil curt with him for a while.
i dont think shes mad at the idea of working with midori (well she is but she accepts it and doesnt wanna take her feelings out on others) but rather just the reminder of the gulf between them...that ranger really is part of ASUNARO and might hold more loyalty to another employee then any of them is...hard
IF HE WASNT PLAYING AMNESIA SIMULATOR IT COULD BE TRUCE TALKING SEASON
what shin says: sure you can try that
what shin also is saying: fuck you??
TRUCE BLOCKED BY MIDORIS FUNEE ACTING
stop he just wants to have fun : (
sara is the funny actor around here stop trying to steal her thing
you havent even studied lame sitcom amensia plots for this...
rn we pray that shins acting abt dying in highschool
sometimes ur confident and have amnesia iS THERE A PROBLEM!!
YEAH sara and shin are both valid because ranger honestly he is always going to be a part of asunaro and have that inherent loyalty, and his way of thinking is always going to be dramatically different... but his relationships are just messy and complicated and it's unfortunate but thank god neither of them understand it because no one should
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3 years ago @Edit 3 years ago
but then ranger responds to how ppl treat him so it's like... i'm shaking my head at everyone involved here but especially you midori
idt he'd let him go too far tho he's just like w/e at him acting like a moron though
if only people talked to each other we could avoid so many problems
listen he'll stop bring a moron once they call him out successfully
dfgffdfg he's waiting on his scrunklies
this thread is like cute + funny + makes me kinda sad
i knowww god that really is the yttd mood
sara's idea death has me
ITS TEH WAY IM ABT TO RUIN IT
its fine bc even if she didnt die like that she got to see midori scream in a coffin as he died
this is why he doesnt wanan truce
you keep bringing up his worst moments
when next practicum comes and everyone is stanced and collared up!
love sara going hey remember the coffin
midori being like hey you can't bring up MY trauma
keep thinking about 'why aren't my toys breaking properly??'
sighs its fine you cant break ur toys immediately
they had like a whole school year to grow and midoris being good now times change
he's gotta get the lay of the land
he do he gotta see whats going on
theyre having a tea party no foul moods
the war of words... the winner is: nobody :' )
event post! i was like wait i should write this all down before i forget and oops
am i playing fast and loose with the memory thing? yeah but listen,,,,,
OK TRUE BUT IUTS TEA WE CAN SELL
fdgfhgfhgj time for Commerce
also i'm sorry about him being like 'huh. anyway time to stay in my lane' about it
NOT U SORRY THATS SO CUTE, but know you're doing perfect
yessss
all according to keikaku
im extremely excited : DD
??? --> nanami telling myself not to worry and have fun bc ultimately the accuracy rests on shin's brian
you say that and yet you're nailing hinata enough to fool her
i wasn't kidding about the problems with identity poor lad
turns out getting shot in the soul doesn't help with that at all
yeah, narumi shot him in the shoulder when they were all souls
he has like, soul injury from all the stuff in canon so it wasn't great, but that sort of added to it
im crying sara was so worried she made him so much of his favourite soup while he tried to be like sara im fine it was just my soul
one day their friendship will return from the war
shin --> maple it might be bc this is 1am but this is very funny to me for no clear reason
going through shin ai's dialogue just to brush up and i'm like
hey, hello? what do you mean by this? shakes him
what are your secrets you little lad
he's def got a lot more under the surface than he lets on I think
this weekend is Cleaning Weekend so I will probably be sparse
accidentally made all the text on my computer bigger and it's wigging me out slightly
lying on my side because i've got reactions for shin currently, but not actual words
shakes him like give me your dialogue
shin unfortunately does not know about the wibbly time things preventing ranger from participating
midori watching with binoculars
tbf he wouldn't out amami anyway
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3 years ago @Edit 3 years ago
if he figured it out so i'm like.. yeah that's still kind of valid.
midori is like that sickos meme outside the window
yeah..... god it's a mess
doesn't help that like
shin literally was the last person to see hiro alive
that was the last time someone could have acted
so that's something fun in his brain rn
given rantaro's involvement then
but yeah that's why ranger's statement is rubbing him particularly raw
yeah it makes sense... all three of them are really going through it
THEY REALLY ARE im crying
the yttd soaps
me looking wistfully at the shin and sara friendship and the shin and ranger.... whatever they had
midori catching up on the soaps
he's like oh i love this season finale
it's the bachelor couch interview episode
i keep thinking about shin accusing nao of not respecting mishima
there's also a fun parallel setting up here possibly
shin, about midori: can someone do something
ranger: you should do something about it yourself
ranger, about rantaro: maybe you all could have stopped it
shin: you should have done something about it yourself
although it's a little uncharitable bc ranger thought it but did suggest options
i'm just imagining this playing as they're talking about punching him and
the purring thing being referenced
i think this is also the only time shin's used keigo's name which is :' ) as well
shins so cute i pressed my hand to my heart over him when i woke up and saw that
he doesnt know how hard that comment about amami not being the amami that would deserve the punch most hit tho for subaru looks off
hhhhh 'no more than subaru knows just why natsume is so hurt now'
yeah god im crying shin doesn't know subaru has lost memories
not YET imma make him PAY
it's coming for him
he's just sitting there and yyou're behind him with lens flare eyes and a bat
bc shin doesn't like komaeda but at this point tolerates him and it's kind of evened out to this almost friendship like equilibrium by default
he still thinks komaeda baits this sort of thing, it kills me
ive just got
my head in my hands
bc on the one hand he gets it would repeat events but also he's being sharp about it
komaeda like "yeah ill check on add" and then he doesnt
best outcome here honestly
sick and twisted of us methinks
dsfdgsfdg good soap team let's hit the showers
kills me too bc the BEST option would have been telling komaeda to get some medical help
also i see that ominous foreshadowing
i see it
He's """"""Going"""""""""""" to find add
what if add just goes to the bottom of the pool because he doesnt need to breathe
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3 years ago @Edit 3 years ago
sakasaki: he's going to take ranger with him
bc no one wants him here either
ADD TRYNA DROWN US SO TRUE
SDFDGF add like sea monster chan you're my only friend
IT REALLY IS A MESS IM LIKE
HOW DO WE FIX THIS
add just laying flat on his back at the bottom of the pool so no one can try to talk to him
poolmonsterchan is cool. they can stay.
poolmonsterchan wont judge him....
i'm picturing it nudging him for treats
i'm so glad you get to play out this rp decadence
i knowww i'm having a fun time
also crying at the fact playing this character has gotten me into soup guess what i'm having for dinner
i know there's a music out there that suits this perfectly but only the shape of it is coming to mind so i'm just here like
shin ai? --> maple it's debateable how much shin ai actually knows or remembers about death game plans, but they're both smart cookies and it's this shin under the surface
sou? --> rlnami you can tell i saw Inscryption not too long ago and loved it
love me 'the dm is their own character who'll mess with the mechanics'
god that game hit me right in the spot that loves meta bullshit
she can still get out of this! not that there's specific avenues for it, but she's inherently able to fight against this world's rules by virtue of being from outside of it
it's just gonna try press the issue
shin's dreamscape is so cute
i'm having a lot of fun with it, i kind of died these past few days in ytts hell so time to get back into it
this man has subscriptions of issues
it's helping me think about how he's been processing recent events too, which is something i've been stuck on recently bc there's been a Lot
that's a good thing to get sucked into, i'm excited to play thru it
oh gosh yeah there's been... so much lately
jan/feb really came for everyone
IT REALLY DID im like lisa staring at the table
i'm glad we're getting a relatively chill month to tidy things up
and yisss i much recommend it
kai is so cute
listen you can pry this metaphor from my cold dead hands
LEARNING IN REAL TIME: nanami will go through the worst thing she's experienced in her life a second time if it means saving her friends
shin --> subaru i love that subaru's dream is like 'he can keep the beanie, it's the only fashionable thing he has'
and also a handy way for me to retroactively interweave stuff that's been getting inconsistent after some time to realign on his character
"no really i meant to do that"
people are naturally inconsistent, so it's got some buffer, but too much and it's loss of voice entirely
fdgfdfsd the Writer's Saving Throw
'why is shin a little more comfy here?' 'feeling more confident from his new toy' etc
but yeah i've been doing some canon review these past days and also trying to get more of a grip on how in particular he's changed in yogen
shin --> sara debated 'can you stand' but he does get a little sharper when he's trying to change the subject
shin --> helena it's honestly interesting that shin
does defer to expertise where he can
shin --> alice love this awkward 'good work alice' so much. this is what leaders do right? right
shin --> alice he'll get around to the lantern once the internal debate battle resolves
i'm also thinking about his 'they didn't give me anything that would break the game!' line when yelling at sara on the rooftop bc i think that kind of made it click for him?
it's interesting that despite being such a suspicious person he DOES fall into traps like the laptop, where he fails to consider the source
so that's why he's able to be like 'it won't be something we're not 'supposed' to know, but might still be useful' here.... love that tiny little development going under the radar
i think it's partly because he's such a deeply uncertain person that he really does cling tightly to the certainties he feels he CAN rely on... someone who doubts everything can end up taken in by anything, and while he's not as bad as that there's that element to it... and then there's the layer on top of it being another habit he's suspicious of in himself
these are the 1am rambles, bed i think
i'm starting to get my mojo back so tomorrow... gonna take a crack at a few of the more intensive tags
or well, that need me to look things up
??? --> ranger it's very shin for his subconscious to pick the people most likely to be identifiable as off
shin --> bebby noah his soul's been blending with places like watercolours but it's still struggling a bit
i have the urge to draw shin in elsword style costume but now i have to figure out how that would actually manifest
what is this place's version of a beanie. mysteries
greens, blues, purple and browns probs do make a nice colour palette in the moonlight, it's interesting thinking about the scarf shift
sdfgfdddfgfhg i keep having to remember he isn't wearing the red on anymore
shin's soul is being so mean to her : pensive :
i decided in the end to combine the options so that ranger doesn't HAVE to plug himself in to advance things
but it's very funny to see shin's soul kind of throwing down the gauntlet a lil
it's like puffed fur but also a game of chicken
oh i’m so glad you and i both went for reko
it's maximum pain hours :''' )
didn't intend it but i'm running with it
i love him being like 'well i could do that' i keep thinking about that nankidai sketch where him and alice get into a fight over who gets to give kanna a scarf
shin --> helena me hefting the rocket launcher to my shoulder and pointing it straight at mira
thinking also about that 'so you cry too, kanna' line. i think about that line a lot

alice thinking shin's name is cool
sou? --> alice 1 would have had the cables snap then and there, now it's up to alice if he cuts them
im crying tho i love this so much
sou? --> alice tfw you're accidentally thiiiiis close to ripping out a chunk of ur friend's soul and absorbing it
although it's debatable what would have resulted from that first part
i did think about making this uno, but some other day
shin --> joe me rubbing my little hands together like ohohoh
it's fun writing a shin who's a little less likely to second-guess the evidence of his senses... just a little
shin --> helena inside shin there is a very small, very angry shounen protagonist
Vulnerability this song came on the playlist while writing that and made me think of it
it's interesting also bc this is also very much shin having hot glue gunned something he's held for a while onto something he's been gradually getting more of an idea of in yogen
im crying we've traumatised alice
shin --> inaba me thinking about how shin has his friendly side and it's takes you to thing 'look, cool right?'
:' ) he really is gradually feeling his way through these sorts of things
shin --> nanami working on some feb tags now that we're getting into AC season
shin --> nanami i keep thinking about how in ytts shin is the one to point out that even if your memories of someone are erased, there should still be traces of them
(he's also the one to point out to jin that bc he can remember the person he's grieving, she can't be dead per the island's rules)
he’s such a good roomie though, that’s helpful. especially at that date, she’s had it rough with how yogen’s dissociative qualities have been getting to her
yeah. it's good advice even if it's not externally caused :''' )
these dissociative fucks, my heart
it's tricky for shin bc like. it's hard to separate what's trauma from what's midori bc the way the brain processes pain is how midori removes things from memory, but to shin it feels like a supernatural power or someone stealing his thoughts, so he can overassign agency to it sometimes
but it shows in things like the time AFTER midori left is also fuzzy to him... he has to make a guess why he kept and wore the scarf at all
dsfdg THEY REALLY ARE
handshake same brain meme
reverse engineering your own dissociation.....
or rather, midori reverse-engineering shin's
nanami just seems to have picked up a lot of dissociative habits before hope's peak that were then exacerbated by it. which makes sense - both that she'd learn how to dive into other worlds easily by all her gaming, and also that hope's peak would want to nurture that particular talent despite its mental health consequences
so it's less an active trauma than a passive one that's made her so susceptible to stuff like that
(although, like, being murdered didn't help)
(it never doessss)
hhh yeah, that makes sense... the commonality in that it was both used for someone else's benefit
that really hits the nail on the head in a way i hadn't thought about before
also i gotta say im like the 'these edibles ain't shit' meme but with my adhd meds rn holy shit
me: why am i taking these they don't really work anyway
me: why am i taking three hours to do anything
i wonder,,
rip me but it's good i still had some left over
yeah i'm glad you had some!
i wasn't sure if she'd get to see him or if he'd still be stuck in memory
but i'm so glad she gets to!!
heheheh i thought about it and I figured it was fitting : D
she tried so hard to save him, and even if the part of the point of the memory is you can't save everyone, sometimes you can
shin --> joe god i love writing shin who's got a little more of his highschool self mixed in
he's got an interesting duality of curiosity and leaving things alone and what's tipping the scales here is the sense that joe could be in trouble
sdfdgfg he really does care :''' )
there might be a little of being in sara's role leaking in a little too, esp with previous soul melding
sou? --> miyuki your opinion means nothing in the face of what everyone else is thinking
this is shin playing himself playing himself and im crying
and he's doing it because he tried to look into inaba's heart and he Played Himself
he really was like 'damn. looks like it's the default setting i guess'
there's other possible choices, like ranger or miyuki but i thought this was extremely funny
yiss
Led through the mist,
By the milk-light of moon,
All that was lost, is revealed.
Our long bygone burdens, mere echoes of the spring,
But where have we come, and where shall we end?
If dreams can't come true, then why not pretend?
shin --> inaba keep thinking about hayasaka giving asunaro everyone's medical information
it's an interesting theme that's been cropping up with shin lately; the uses of information about someone
there's a reason the dreamscape drew from asunaro imagery (well, multiple reasons.... ranger's revelations really struck deep)
it both says a lot that he IS keeping track of this but also reluctant to share... it's interesting what's going on
sou??? --> inaba i've also been having to try and pin down what his shadow self IS, beyond just 'survival instinct'
it's a mess of contradictions, because he's a mess of contradictions, but there's a consistent thread there
at least he's consistent about his inconsitencies??
exactly yeah
there's a fun detail i do want him to say at some point that i've hinted at at the miyuki thread but i want to see if threads hit them first
but i do think amongst other things it's the part of shin that offers decisiveness
it can't feel fear because it can't worry
it's an absence of guidance turned into an ancho
when you lean into your anxiety
yeah. that area past fear and out the other side
just do what you have to. vote for who you hate because it's easier. you'll be eaten if you don't do anything, so move
there's something to that, tbh
yeah like with sara's own red text voice, it's not 'bad' or 'evil' (they do have some interesting difference though)
in fact, taking him out could have some pretty bad effects on shin, bc it's galvanising
but also... shin can end up tearing himself to shreds with it, as happens when core beliefs collide. i do have a lot of fun in tags with like. some aspect of him pushing another away or down, or them fighting each other, or pushing at each other's faces
it's implied in canon his shadow self symbolically strangled him, and that was a massive moment in unprecedented stress, but little things like this happen a lot
he's... there's a lot he feels strongly about and that can lead to crunching noises when it gets mutually exclusive
(or he feels it does, at least)
but it's also interesting bc it means there's elements of himself he distrusts, like he distrusts his own tendency to latch onto people and now because of the death game he distrusts a lot of his own impulses in the other direction because... it didn't work and it made a lot of things worse. but that often leaves him at sea or wildly oscillating
which is like, another thing feeding into why he reacted badly to ranger's accusations in the meeting, rip
dissociatively sits just waiting to see whether people will come to him and not knowing whether to want one or the other
yeah.... often the circumstance of something does shift these scales one side or the other, like with midori he's absolutely clinging onto avoiding and distrusting him because if he loosens...
also complicating this is shin's tendency to project
bc that was a big thing behind his treatment of sara, that he's since come to feel bad about, but now it's like
how do i know i'm right. how can i tell
it's just.... there's a lot :' )
nanami: gently reaches for and tries to be a friend but like a low-key not-overwhelming one
:' ) he's trying to keep down the suspicion about that
helps he approached her first
it's your own fault my guy
fdgdgfgdf she's attached now
and of course that kicks him in the other fear, that he's going to use her and get her killed, that happens with that sort of thing now
tbh the odds of her getting killed at yogen were already very high just by being here
the question is if it becomes his fault
he has hangups about people sacrificing themselves for him... which is partly why his dreamscape was trying to hammer that into her
thanks shin............
fdggfdgf nanami looking at the fact she actually DID get the last piece of him and get him out like 'i wonder who that sign's for'
that sign can't stop me because i can't read!
--is she really the person to get him out of the woods for good, holy shit
hehehe exactly
honestly that sequence was a nexus of shin's complicated thoughts about self-sacrifice vs saving yourself, sorry nanami
yeah
well at least for this
if i think it'd be interesting to have repeat i can have him have gone back in again
nodnod
hey it's fine, she's got practice being a sacrifice
dsfdgffd even worse, as far as shin's concerned
He wonders what movie they all might have watched, if Kanna Kizuchi could have had her way.
a little, in a good way
god i love our alice
sou??? --> inaba i looked it up and yep, the word that's translated to 'jobhopper' is フリーター, "freeter"
which basically means someone who's not in full time employment, a student, or a spouse at home
often someone living with their parents, either unemployed or bouncing between part time jobs that don't pay well and don't really have benefits
they're paid by the hour, instead of receiving a monthly salary
shin probably belongs to this one, the no alternative category, bc he likely dropped out of either highschool or uni with no clear career path..... midori kind of sunk him in that regard
it's interesting, because shin does talk about a convenience store job in ytts, and has one in the nankidai sketches... but also the papers list him as 'self-employed'
i've been squaring the circle with he works part time but also is a freelance programmer and the combo is just enough for him to live on
but yeah this is why gin calls it 'living hand to mouth'
shin --> rlnami not sure how open about being a robot ainami has been so i erred on the side of caution
AInami is literally not able to talk about it, to the degree that her own sister doesn't know she is one either
this is interesting though, i'll have to talk with bun about whether RLnami and AInami have the conversation about warning her
yisss
feel free for rlnami to like. not do it, bc while it's ic for shin to be hung up about this, ooc i don't want that 'everyone hates your character' effect for nms
nodnod that might be what happens
enjoying shin pretending not to know what's going on while not knowing what's going on
it's the double mobius reacharound... his shadow self's supposed to be relatively impartial but it can have a little fun on the job
shin --> alice the fine and noble yogen student store tradition of price-gouging.... i have no clue what the prices of anything are i'm just rolling with it
shin going a leetle mad with power, as a treat
tfw you do so much mental self surgery that an unintentional side effect is becoming a little of an adrenalin junkie
me like should i have him elaborate no that's a perfect place to stop
hi bun yes that's what i thought hehe
i don't think she'll have the inclination to necessarily, i still gotta respond to that tag though
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3 years ago @Edit 3 years ago
thinkin bout how everyone in her "class" comes with a warning bc they kind of blew up the world looks up
then killed each other for stupid reasons looks away... the way yogen just like home
you're right.... i don't think RLnami knows that yet though
ko told her they all died and nobody's corrected him yet
no fortunately she's been spared that cursed knowledge, i'm just like... closes my eyes
think we should stick midori in the nwp give him some therapy
oh that's a good idea yes
HE is minding his BUSINESS LEAVE HIM ALONE!!
yall would just be mean to him w amnesia fr.... !
i just think he needs therapy
really everyone at asunaro deserves amnesia so they can forget that cesspit
crying how much would be LEFT if you delete asunaro from him
shin --> inaba sneaks in a fiver to get some extra bonus ac for a thing
i do love getting more of a bead on shin's shared sense
shin --> miyuki getting into the nitty gritty of it, i'm having a lot of fun with this
that's amazing, i've never realized
'he thinks your name's cool' : )
'bc of the stripes' : /
fdgfgfd it's very visually cromulent and i love it
this is absolutely a name you pick out for a character while going 'ohoho this is going to be so thematically neat'
eqJKFHASDJF THE WAY THAT MAKES HIM GO "HM"
which is another thing in my evidence box that midori was split off as a character
every so often i come across the shin kanji while doing wanikani and go 'it's him!'
but shin's also a fairly common reading for a lot of other kanji so it's fun to think about the meaning overlaps
for example, the one for heart :' )
"main game? what's that? sounds scary"