hey guess what I'm doing [yttd and newest ytts spoilers] talking about malnourishment and eating disorders/problems in here as well
time to flail around and have fun
and... easy mode for sure
hoo boy
MY BOY I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH
man i forgot kanna has such a high crafting stat.... what does she make... nankidai give me the lore
love sara's 'da zo!'
NO I KILLED SARA
F
crying did kai just say shin has a bottomless stomach
okay no it was smth else hm
god tho this is getting sad already
"ahaha, originally."
and then this expression and "....originally....."
and then this expression and "....originally....."
'for some reason, he looked like he'd been wounded'
and then shin being like ANYWAY
something about for once in his life putting on weight
'if you say so but... I'm being serious. being cold all the time...'
/shakes shin until he's healthy enough to withstand the shaking
he's talking about the disadvantages of being so thin i'm 
I KNOW
I JUST WANT TO BURRITO HIM AND FEED HIM SOUP
I KNOW
I JUST WANT TO BURRITO HIM AND FEED HIM SOUP
something about he's certain to catch a cold every winter
awww kai being like then look towards wholeheartedly eating his favourite things
i think he's asking for hotpot now
awww
'i wonder if i keep sipping soup i'll put on weight?'
'i wonder if i keep sipping soup i'll put on weight?'
love that the mishima arc is him getting muscles and the kai arc is him getting more nutrition
this is everything i want for him
i knoww
kai like 'please eat something' with implied (for the love of god) and mood
kai like 'please eat something' with implied (for the love of god) and mood
i feel vindicated for feeding him more in yogen
oh crying it was more like 'please eat something solid/actual material' and shin's like that kind of thing like meat and veges have been too much for his stomach to handle
there's the vibe it's uncomfortable to eat them
there's the vibe it's uncomfortable to eat them
i think kai is like that's been everything he's been making im crying shin's been toughing through it maybe
kai asks him if there's something else he likes and shin's like if it's not too spicy... he does like curry
kai contemplating that that does have more calories
and then shin chiming in with something about carbohydrates
crying kai getting on his case about drinking food and not eating it and shin being like i-it's the same!
he suggests fruit and veges and shin's like 'i'll think about it a little'
shin is me who would live off a liquid diet if i could
plot twist ori was the true shinnie all along
RUNS IN HERE
RELOAD AND BRING SARA BACK [RATTLES THE BARS OFMY CAGE]
HI ANNIE
WHERE IS THE KAI AND SARA CONTENT HRRRHG. HRRRNNGGHHHH
SFDGFDG LISTEN,,,,, IT WAS. AN ACCIDENT
YOU KILLED MY GIRL
next round i promise
AN ACCIDENT
smh.................
oh right i should probably be saving
she got injured while foraging : pensive :
crying kai's like you just like hot drinks don't you and shin's like wait hang on
okay back to gameplay land
i like knowing that if kai and shin were left alone kai would just bully him
funny when kai was like sara for the love of god KILL this man
he doesssss
society if they killed sou trial 1 and let kai hang out with them for the rest of the game >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
bulli for his own good
SFDGDDFDGFHGDF yeah honestly
it's like how komaeda sent yogen into the bad timeline off the bad
*bat
new area!!!!
oh heck, kai recognizes the house?
OH MY FUCKING GOD?
okay do i spoil this
i mean this is all ytts chapter 2 spoilers but also last chance to turn back
okay that's been enough time
guess who's also here!!!
HINAKO IS SWEATING BUCKETS
CRYING THE SCREEN KEEPS GOING RED WHEN SHE SPEAKS CALM DOWN
there go joe, kanna and nao all in one go....
anzu shouts her own name and i'm like 
HINAKO AND KAI CONTENT??
always thinking abt hinako and kai both having the really dead black eyes
what asunaro does to the mf
YEAH
this is your brain on asunaro
this is your brain on asunaro
ah fuck for some reason the game is really slowing down
i'm just getting intermittent beeping
oh right it's probably the rush
school just got out in japan XD
SFDGDF THAT WOULD DO IT
i'm fighting something invisible... hmm
gonna take a break to have a quick bike ride
crying i think kai is genuinely convincing shin he's going to turn HIM into soup
sou soup
OH MY GOD
SOU SOUP
SOU SOUP JOKE IS CANON
okay but like
does that mean it can be a regain
can we regain sou soup
crying
well
there is his dead body currently in a forest somewhere
dead of starvation tho so probably not good eating
well
there is his dead body currently in a forest somewhere
dead of starvation tho so probably not good eating
sou soup does make me think of the teas in deltarune tho
he drinks it and he's like 'this is just hot water...?'
i'm crying in canon it looks like he's going through all the stages of grief and then he's like
surprisingly tasty
surprisingly tasty
he's kai what was it. what the fuck. kai!
and then the encounter just ends like this im crying
oops keiji's dead now, this is tough
hhh kanna died
'help me sou' hhhhhhhhhhhhh
'help me sou' hhhhhhhhhhhhh
feeding shin kanna's life shard like does this make me a monster, probably
JUST A LITTLE
JUST A BIT
it's okay, he doesn't remember she was ever here so that makes it ethically fine or smth
oops there goes qtaro
i can't believe YTTD beach mode also has death.... smh
sfdgfhgghg yeah im crying
at least the death is erased from the minds of the survivors
at least the death is erased from the minds of the survivors
YOU CAN'T JUST HAVE SHIN VORE KANNA
WTF
nobody wants their fun beach times interrupted by dead bodies amirite
FDGHHGDFGFHG
if the question was "is feeding a life shard cannibalism" i would say yes
to be fair i've been feeding him all the dead people, not just kanna
me like. consume their life force. become strong. pat pat
me like. consume their life force. become strong. pat pat
god it really kinda is
HES JUST A SOUL EATER NOW?????
the true secret ingredient of the sou soup
or like, a magical boy (madoka ver)
SFDGDFG god
both? both
both? both
thinking about how his soul gem would be so fucked
can't be fucked, you're feeding him all the grief seeds 
it's true
he's like my state of health has gotten better and i'm like yes good it's working
he's like my state of health has gotten better and i'm like yes good it's working
a grief seed a day keeps the grief away
he's like i put on weight! and i'm proud
and then the weight is
and i'm still proud
baby steps
100 GRAMS???
im also like where the hell did you find a scale on this desert island
I KNOW
he is now 49.1 kg im crying
49.1 isn't.... okay, it could be worst but also lordy
he's so pleased with himself and kai's like '...' but i'm pleased for him
yeah he's..... something is up with that lad
he's cold all the time, he has trouble handling solid foods....
could be any number of things behind it but he's for sure malnourished
there's a nankidai sketch where he's down to 100Y and there's 10 days left in the month and when he buys a drink with it he's crying while he drinks it
no wonder he spends most of the death game resting
does the kg to pounds conversion
whispers holy fucking shit
YEAH
YEAH
IT"S BOTH CANON AND MEDICALLY CONCERNING
YEAH
IT"S BOTH CANON AND MEDICALLY CONCERNING
he's 5'6'' too which like, the BMI is kinda bullshit but take that into account
a stiff wind could blow him over
so i'm comparing him to me - i'm a tiny bit taller, and pre-transition when i was Rail Thin i was still heavier than he is
so like. yeah that's Bad
it's Not Good yeah
he's starting to gain weight in yogen i think but he was still not getting good calorie intake up until october thanks to the infinite food hack so he's had three months of actual proper meals
heck
learning how to make his own soup helped he can have it whenever he wants...
but fdgf you can see why food and sharing food is part of his friendship/love language
yeah. for sure
characters like that slay me. see also akane owari & kyouko sakura
yeah :''' ) they know what it's like to not have it, so they hate wasting it, will hoard it, and go for it where they can
literally my journal name for kyouko was the japanese for "want some?"
awwww
cause that's how you know she trusts you
god where's that one quote
she has a tic where she has to be eating something no matter what
and i headcanoned, uhh (cw: eating disorder??)
she used magical girl healing to keep herself from getting sick so she could eat whatever & however much she wants
and i headcanoned, uhh (cw: eating disorder??)
she used magical girl healing to keep herself from getting sick so she could eat whatever & however much she wants
hhhh no that tracks immensely
oof, shin
dsfd i should clarify, that quote isn't from yttd or ytts
but it does kind of... sum this up
but it does kind of... sum this up
what's it from?
pathologic 2 which i am incapable of not referencing at this point
OH
good game !!
YES!! it really is
dsfdgf one day i will make it past the first day but i love the lore
really really interesting. i haven't played a lot but i've played some
YEAH IT'S SO HARD
resource management games are soothing to me instead of stressful but it's the fps that gets me
you do resource management i'll do the fps and we'll get through it
dfdgfdfgf handshake meme together we are one pathologic player
RIGHT
fdgdfs this is why i couldn't resist the urge to make shin accept Dead Items
mildly possibly mundanely supernatural night shift shopkeepers
that was such a good idea and i love it
once mem event slows down i'm throwing nanami at both him and ko for shopkeep stuff
yesssss
dsfdg i still need to tag out with mem event i'll try and get that done tomorrow although things'll be busy bc it's cleaning weekend
dsfdg i still need to tag out with mem event i'll try and get that done tomorrow although things'll be busy bc it's cleaning weekend
love me some day and night duality
shhh take your time
eyes emoji
keep thinking about how we never saw shin's designated execution
the closest hint we have is 'pit of spikes? maybe??' from a nankidai sketch
interesting.
lemme try find it
see if it was junko, she'd expect he would try to escape and factor it in
yeah part of me suspects that WAS it, honestly. esp if you go with the theory the key to the collar was part of his balancing and he didn't cut it with a stolen knife (could go either way)
it's interesting bc you drew that parallel between nanami and shin of them both bleeding out... and they both sort of went forward into it?
yeah they both went towards a false exit
and in their last moments, managed to save their friend
(not that either lived to see that)
yeah godddd it kills me
their last gifts.....
dsfdg fits that the colour in moon 1 is red
DOESN'T IT?
and found the sketches!
nanami: "it's pink, actually"
oof...
dsfdgf IT'S PINK ACTUALLY
you will never not convince me that all dangans are red/pink colorblind
cause it's hilarious
yeah
crying bc the nankidai sketches are usually funny and wild as hell but sometimes they do also contain pathos and hints
crying bc the nankidai sketches are usually funny and wild as hell but sometimes they do also contain pathos and hints
dsfdgfhgdf crying
it's like how the word orange didn't exist in the english language for a bit, it was just called red
the dangans just have one word for pink/red
it's like how the word orange didn't exist in the english language for a bit, it was just called red
the dangans just have one word for pink/red
RIGHT
i don't know if i've messed up the shin/nanami inbox thread by easing off on the sibling thing. - but personally i genuinely thought the hiyoris were, like, almost twins, until actually finishing 3-1
honestly, it's a fair assumption to make
there's still speculation midori IS biologically related to one or both of the greenblings, and even if not, he's got a similar thematic role
being to shin what shin is to kanna and shin outright said he was like a big brother to him at some point
being to shin what shin is to kanna and shin outright said he was like a big brother to him at some point
yeah i really really would not be surprised
and they're also conceptual twins if my theory about midori as a character being carved off from shin around the middle of chapter 2 is any indication but that's less certain
at the very least - on a soul level (and that seems to matter a lot in yogen), they seem to be twins
but yeah there ARE similiarities to be made, even if shin is all
about it
dsfdgs "what ever our souls are made of it's the same (insult)" "self recognition through the other (derogatory)"
snrk
i'm just thinking about it a lot with the god threads
although that's a lie midori would be : D you hear that shin? about it
ohoh? tell me more
ohoh? tell me more
"you are not your soul" - a god who probably has a good idea about what's going on around here
oooooh
yeah
(adding to the theme is that sun and moon duality they've got going on)
yesss
it makes sense
your body's an important part of you but it's not just you either, in this paradigm
your body's an important part of you but it's not just you either, in this paradigm
it's not just body, jizo-sama seems to imply that soul is separate from identity
nanami just started her visit and she's gonna come at things from a different but related angle, i'm really excited
actually, so sorry - the actual "you are not your soul" quote is two tags earlier, starting here
oh i do love this
i think i see what's being gotten at
if they moved on and became someone else, it would be the same soul, but a different person
yeah
something might survive, but not this set of thoughts and experiences
dsfdgdf annie and i did contemplate who shin and sara might be if they did decide to graduate and move on
the end of you as this person, but not you
oh??
i might have mentioned it before, but shin would be likely to end up as someone like kugie, or inaba now i think of it
aw! i like that
still bearing some of the scuff-marks, still kind.... someone different
dsfdfsd also a little more able to body tackle ppl
that’s really cool. and then ends up back in yogen
shin like maybe i should put more character points into that this time
fdgfgfsd god that would be a trip
i’ll bet jizo-sama knows if the same soul is in yogen twice
technically due to time bullshit two instances of the same school COULD be at the school at the same time and we would never know
god he might
gfgdfd something for nanami to ask
heh. nah... different angle.
she asked noah’s cards why she’s here. she got an answer. she wants to ask jizo-sama what an end goal at yogen looks like
gamer wants to know endgame strats
btw who would sara be?
dsfdgdfs nanami's gonna speedrun yogen and good on her
YOGEN GDQ
sara would be 'someone completely different'
that's what she'd want....
CRIES?!?
she wants to rest... have a nice chill life being a laidback person who doesn't have a dad in the mafia
let her rest. i agree with this
that’s such an interesting question
it iiis
i think nanami would be like someone who made friends earlier in life. maybe isn’t even all that into games
she wants to go touch grass
GODS
also im
im sorry but i'm losing it
'if one drink made me gain 100g, maybe 100 drinks will make me gain 10kg!'
or similar im crying, shin
kai's like cool your jets a little
ah fuck i accidentally skipped through a chunk
it was an accident i swear!
back to cheery island music
wait are people actually watching me play this
i keep seeing yells of 'alice!' when i get into fights
here we go, time to see the after-run lore
'my body hurts... I can't identify the circumstances and...'
'this place... what in the world...'
'[kai began and surveyed the area]'
oooh the crossroads appears again
'th-this place...'
he is so confused
'[it was a familiar landscape]'
something about it being busy with people and carse
and it being noisy :' )
'is it true... i've been returned... as said?' (roughly)
'that promise... it wasn't a lie...'
oh fuck footsteps noises
'[Without being satisfied, he trudgingly started walking]'
something about it being exactly the same
he's taking bigger steps and starting to run
'[the chidouin house...]'
he needs to return quickly to it
'...nearly...!'
nearly there nearly there
today... how much hope can he hold?
there!
oh boy
???: welcome home... kai
[then... my consciousness cut out]
???: I... Repeat it...
???: Any number of times... any number of times...
???: Until I... feel better...
???: Any number of times... any number of times...
???: Until I... feel better...
So we can see Winner Sara is still Going Through It
it's late but i might take a stab at getting sara's dialogues tomorrow bc rip about her dying
OH BOY
okay there's a break in cleaning time to shine!
ohhh the tiny meow when gin introduces himself
okay this might jinx it but this is starting out a lot better foodwise already
god i love sara's second forage ability
actually managed to do the cooking minigame this time!
several people are severely wounded but this is a five star meal i consider this a success
kurumada paid me 1000 yen for it
binging with kai
NO THREE PEOPLE DEAD
OH NOOOOO... honestly this game is brutal until you figure out what works best (I actually did a test run for Kai and managed to get a no deaths run)
oh niiiiice : D
i'm slowly getting the hang of it, it's been so long since i last played it
i'm slowly getting the hang of it, it's been so long since i last played it
it really roughs you up tho
sara's turn to eat dead people's souls
I'm waiting on proper translations for the cooking minigame because I have no idea how that works LOL
sfdgfsfdg yeah... i'm just kinda flailing... I'll get the hang of it
i pick up a little more each time
i pick up a little more each time
i THINK you decide how much food you're going to use, and then you pick people to get injured for some reason, and then you cook the food with your choice of utensil and whether you're going for beauty or flavor
"you pick people to get injured for some reason" what is going on in this game
i have no idea but as long as i'm having fun :' )
i'm choosing to believe this is high octane cooking but maybe it's them risking their lives for ingredients
i'm choosing to believe this is high octane cooking but maybe it's them risking their lives for ingredients
next run I'll focus on translating that
ah here we go, sara fondness event!
'yes, this is kai. what's the matter?'
okay she's asking how to obtain a large tree's seed/fruit/nut
ah fuck accidentally clicked... there's currently random messages blocking the screen and i can't save -_-
and he's just like hmm.... getting the fruit...
ohhh he's talking about an easy way to break it open, so it's probably a coconut
awww sara's like oh! teach me please!
ah, he's telling her to please watch carefully while he cuts sharply along a white lengthwise line
hhh kai talks so politely
she's commenting that it's quite heavy i think
oh my god kai is using an exclamation mark
i think he's referencing her kendo
she cut it right in half!
aww she's really excited about it
this is cute
'it'd be a waste to leave out the fruit'
something about it being sou
*SOUR
she's like sour??? : (
kai says sour isn't favourable
huh, now he's talking about data
i think he's saying he can salvage it
sara's pleased by this
dfdgfhgs i think she's like wait how did you know i do kendo
sfdhg he's peacing out and she's like hey don't go anywhere
but he's gonnnne
crying
crying
kanna when did your fighting stat get that high
oof my base got destroyed
everyone's really accident prone this run
so close!
huh I didn't get money this time but i'm not sure what i did get
oh! they upgraded my base!
kanna keeps finishing these monsters off
crying i made a food that got 0 stars and -40 points rip
still got 100Y for it though :' )
the problem with nobody being dead is i can't use cannibalism
shin's starvation survival proc'd
unfortunately reko wasn't so lucky
gonna go for the stay as the island gets increasingly fucked up ending this time
welp i'm gonna make alice fight reko's hallucination
oh jesus she hits hard
ah i spent ten food and fucked up again
a -5 this time at least
ohoh midori's diary
hi there rei
'the island... collapsed'
Miley: it's like I said...
she's talking about how the world can't handle it
no news from winner sara this time though
that's it for tonight I think
people are dead but going to try to take the boat off the island this time
shin helped with cooking and i got 50 points this time
giving everyone a rest and zzz for the last day
ENGLISH TRANSLATION ALREADY LET'S GOOOOOOOOOO
fgffd oh yeah it's chuggin
god kai talking about his assassin training....
1). we kill gashu
2). we kill gashu
3). we kill gashu
we get to him before him gets to him
god the third nao fondness event and ohhhh my heart
kanna: if you meet my sister, kai, please keep it secret that I hugged you!
i only played through once but all of kai's events are sooooo cute, his sense of humor
i knowwww
and the fact he's got such a deadpan face people take his jokes seriously
and the fact he's got such a deadpan face people take his jokes seriously
i love kai, nao's right he's very cute
crying
shin: this looks like a container with some kind of tool attached.... a torture device?
kai: it's a mixer
kai: it's a mixer
potion of gain weight\
and then the five stages of grief
'what's in this???'
'don't concern yourself'
'don't concern yourself'
'you had a fun time with sou'
im wheezing
i know what i need to regain now
looking at your sicko playthrough
STOP KILLING THEM
lint killing every yttd character and feeding them to shin
he needs the sustenance to grow up strong and healthy
he gains 1 gram of weight for every dead praticipant
it's true
he needs them to become strong
or he will not last through the winter
or he will not last through the winter
im keeping them all happy with no cannibalism this time
love kai being like let's not think about the particulars of how we have a castle
NEW ENDING ALERT
oh my god???
'the island's destruction suddenly stopped'
WHAT
THE THIRD FLOOR
WAS BASED OFF
THIS????
WAS BASED OFF
THIS????
im clutching my head
HELLO????
HER DAD
oh god what is he wearing
HELLO?
you take those teeth right off your face sir
huh one thing i'm noticing is that it's a LOT easier to make friends as mishima than as kai, poor kai
i hardly have to murder ANYONE and feed someone else their corpse
crying whenever it's 'you had a fun time with x' and x is running away/panicking
TEACHING MINIGAME
im crying kurumada's like hey maybe studying ain't so bad meanwhile poor anzu is suffering
aw what
the medstation is more expensive as mishima
the medstation is more expensive as mishima
got mishima's version of the ending
he got hit on the back of his head....
'please if there is a god'...
WHAT THE HELL?
THEY REPURPOSED HOSPITAL BEDS???
took me a sec to recognize anzu from behind
THE NEW TEACHER OF THE SCHOOL OH BOY
HERE WE GO
WONDER WHO IT COULD BE
huh, safalin's infirmary...
WAIT WHAT
okay this makes more sense actually but wow
okay that's me with a completed kai and mishima run... that's it for tonight i think
note to self, try a run with joe just resting constantly to raise fondness
the humane option
the humane option
crying why is this so hilarious
HE JUST KNOCKS HIM OUT???
the mishima second level one is making me
Q TARO TOO??
HE JUST KNOCKS PEOPLE OUT WHEN THEY START GETTING WEIRD?
crying about sou getting smacked in hindsight
god i love that kai loves puns
CRYING I LOVE HIM
crying we levelled up sou too much and now he actually has a strong grip
i'm feeling vindicated now
if you make food for shin, it WILL be impossible to get rid of him
the way he's all there's nowhere to escape, kai >:3c makes me laugh
I KNOWWWW
'YOU CAN'T RUN FOREVER KAI'
he's like that one deadly million dollar snail
god where's that one art annie showed me
oh, turns out i sent it
(zombotical on tumblr)
the greenbling limpets speaking to you inside your brain
leave the chidouins, you don't need them
leave the chidouins, you don't need them
ah, found the source
THE MEDITATION SEASHELL NECKLACE
crying at keiji bringing kai weird objects like here cook these
im crying ytts has a mushroom that makes your fingernails grow
i don't want to regain this but it's good to know
WHEEZING
oh yeah keiji would absolutely eat weird berries, clicking yes to that
crying at gin trying to find kai a 'big buff wife' in the woods
THE HIGH FIVE
'you had a fun time with kai. kai's stats increased' you can get fondness with the character you're playing???
thinking about the sara on the outside now
i do like the converse with q taro's concern over muscle
okay that's enough for today though