pinch and a punch for the 1st of the month
NNNNNO IT'S NOT I HAVE THREE HOURS TO GO....
i still need to do AC aaaaa
heheheheh too late i'm from the future and i'm declaring it
oh nooo
i can help with threads or do you have enough?
i have enough i just need to stop being distracted by other things
also eyes emoji at the alice hair dye
one step closer....
forgive the wall of text bunny, i love setting a scene
looking at the rewards sets ups like niiiiice
part of brain that loves numbers is happy
STOP i love text walls
also NO
I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ALL MY TABS
with all their half-written tags rip
ah well, i'll get to them
today is cleaning day so i'll be sparse
OH NO
I super recommend
Typio if you don't have it or something something similar!!
oooh is there a firefox version?
yeah no firefox version unfortunately so maybe bunny's option would be better!!
i'll def give it a lookin, bc this is the second time rip
it used to happen to me so MUCH OTL
also crying shin once more getting spooked by shadow figures
oh i'm so happy i bought that gold chain on a whim
okay plans for tonight
> tag nene
> write up birthday post
we'll see how this goes
maybe make it this month's catchall? : thonk :
shin --> nene! love getting to steal this turn of phrase from deleted content
it's interesting bc in a lot of the cut content shin seems a lot more willing to help out... makes sense why he's not but it's fun to spin
no clue she really wants a hug right now and im crying
the way air gets heavy before rain or a storm
the sneaky thing about anxiety is it's not about the things you're worrying about, it's the emotion of worry, and it'll can try and weasel it's way into finding new things to latch onto if refuted
(reasoning it through does help though)
i do like how shin actually does defer to expertise, it's like a minor hidden detail in him
every day i think about him only piping up after kanna does in the main attraction, it's such a fun little thing
got my inbox down to one page! feels good
still waking up but i'm keeping an eye on this thread
i almost wanna throw roomie at him but idk what she’d say and she’s caused enough trouble
just let him rest i guess lol
fdgffdg you can have them chat if you want, he's wide awake for sure now
pats cheeks okay plans for tonight
>get event post up
>birthday stuff
i'm crying i really did not expect this response and i really should have
i'm crying though him pretending to be sou pretending to be shin is having me grinning, i love this so much
also god i do love the light and dark tea theme.. green and black, day and night, life and death...
green leaves and black soil...
love when shin hits that sweet spot of scared and secure where he just goes fuck it
SHIN IS LIETRALLY MAKING ME LAUGH
plans for tonight
>birthday and karaoke stuff
>rumors!
shin --> inaba thinking about shin in the death game refusing to let qtaro in to negotiate and him now just opening the door... having feelings
shin --> kokichi me consulting my friends who live in japan about what would be a song he'd feasibly pick, i'm crying
it's about not giving up tho, it's nice
sometimes you just pick smth that looks familiar too, so it's not vital to get it absolutely correct
shin --> rika shh i'm not dodging it
shin did see her network post about 'magic that makes you older' which is currently kicking the back of his brain, but i think it's reasonable to not immediately remember an offhand sentence a month old
shin --> sara i'd been planning this for a while, it'll be interesting to see how the birthday affects it
it's interesting that for all he finds a hidden room, there's also two rooms he's nervous about entering
shin --> sara i've been having fun setting up this subtle distinction in when and where he hold's nene's scarf or the blue one
at the core of it, he does want to be friends again, it's just.... gestures at all this on top
shin --> sara there's something here that doesn't want to call itself gratitude
shin --> rlnami you know when something happens and it accidentally unlocks a whole lot of emotions and you're like why am i feeling this much about this thing? yeah
shin --> kaede the two inches to the left thing is like a passive mental debuff
shin --> inaba shin's an interesting person bc he has strong principles that he'll act against to survive and then project or try to justify to not let the self loathing set in (it's still there, like the existential dread)
NO HIS EYES ARE JUST SHINY (he is a little)
i knowwwwww
i headcanon that he does tend to tear up more than he likes
shin --> compsci chan i keep thinking about how during the ill-fated escape attempt shin says that they can't take the ais with them but they can say goodbye if they have time
for all that he's more emotional than logical as he'd like to believe, he does have... an interesting kind of defeatest pragmatism?
where he'll be tooth and nail up until he can't do anything, and then he'll just sort of... give up or switch tack
his little 'i'm done for', his going to set up the joe ai when it's clear he's not making it, and it extends to other people too - that ai bank, kurumada
he's kind but he understands 'i can't do it' and that's interesting to me
it also shows with his attitude towards the past - because you can't change the past. you'd think that'd make him more forgiving but it's more like.... 'you can't undo your actions'
and you also see it in him telling sara and midori things along the lines of 'we got you, give up already'
that's partly his narrative sense of how the world should go... maybe this is drawing straws but i think it also ties into his attitudes towards rest and recovery
he's HAD to learn to be economical with his energy and his body has physical limits
so if you can do something you should try, but if you can't it's a bad idea to waste the energy
which is fun bc it came up a little unintentionally with the dreamscape and his shadow self being like 'why try to [be this person] when it didn't work last time?' i think it's interesting bc it's something that goes up and down all levels of himself, it's not a thing he's split on
adhd decided that i was stitching a sock tonight but tomorrow. more tags
“defeatist pragmatism” i love that
i knoww it's very interesting
i wonder if it's something that clashes a little with sara's affirmments - 'we're going to escape!' sort of thing
it hurts me her trying to reassure him in yogen that it won't be the same (because midori's lost interest in him) but him not believing it bc from his perspective it's not something she can achieve, so it's an empty promise
can i just say how cute that tag was and how much i appreciate it...

i love shin so much, and he really does deserve to hear it.
but i agree, it seems like shin is honestly pretty good at knowing his limits? he also comes across as the type who can recognize and defer to expertise rather than exhausting himself trying to pull answers out of the air, which is a really important trait just in general.
he makes a lot of social mistakes under pressure, but there's a lot of points where he's very self-aware and can recognize things that are easy for a person to miss about themselves.
yeah! it's easy to focus on his flaws, but he does also have strengths (sometimes they are the same thing depending on the situation)
i do love that he's like. got that eagerness to learn and willingness to listen to expertise, it's easy to miss because his character type often has that sort of 'i know what i'm doing shut up' as a flaw
but no he's like 'keiji might know more about this' or 'what do you think about that' it kills me bc this is a strength of his but it requires social capital he loses to work
i think it's what makes his teamup with nao go so well, he really does work best with other people
yeah it's interesting because he's this weird mix of very perceptive in some areas and missing thing in others
when usually with characters who are Perceptive TM they tend to be perceptive across the board here (looks at keiji)
he's got a very very very keen nose for power dynamics, and I keep thinking about how much he picks up on things but then draws the wrong (if still plausible) conclusions about them, or is right but at the wrong time
i think shin's sometimes at war with his own perceptiveness and projection-empathy bc it's harder to hate someone if you get them
also yiissss the tag is so cute, i love compsci chan so much
he deserves little a praise i'm crying i was writing this like shin u might be accidentally rubbing it in a little with the 'it wasn't easy'
getting looked up to is a complex thing for him but he can accept some 'thank you for saving the town brave hero!' im crying
shin --> nene + meeting me like, is this too much info at once, but... it's like 1/25th of what we have and he's having fun
still thinking about shin's slide of looking at sara and being like she just picks up anything huh and then later he is also becoming Evidence Guy
also hopefully the pink dust won't interfere with the scarf's magic rip
even when he's being genuinely friendly he gets evasive i'm crying
belatedly realising i got the time wrong but that makes shin reading out the proper note funnier
it's okay shin they're just a little rootbound
crying at him accidentally mentioning the solution up there
shin --> ranger this kills me bc he's sort of subconsciously.... going with like, the approach he'd take to sara?
because it's his closest template here
he's trying a mix of her directness and his own beating about the bush and it's an interesting result
oh shin... he tries. it'll work just fine though, since it's going to make ranger ?
he does try, in this institution......
dsfdgfhgdfdgf that's a success on his roll, confusing ranger so much he's not annoyed
i did a sanity roll and he got a 2 shin is safe
god ranger really isn't doing well huh
the komaeda hallucination thread is killing meeeeee
Shin knows, or has enough of a hunch it's close to knowing, that Inaba absolutely isn't making a first aid kit for the dorms... to him it's more likely she's stocking up because she doesn't trust Midori, which is absolutely a completely sane move to him.
this made me laugh bc inaba doing it bc she dont trust any of us
SHE LIT THINKS WE'D ALL LET HER DIEEE
ngl looks at my charas theyd let anyone die
dsfdgf shin and inaba are the handshake meme on the paranoia wavelength
if someone sent me a friend request on discord i had a 'what if this is a scam link' moment and apologies
i do think about shin and traps a lot
doing this thing where i go into my inbox and then set aside a new batch of five to work through : D
shin --> inaba just a touch hypocritical but shh, he's working things through
it's that looking from the other perspective thing like with realising later what sara meant by being scared because she has friends
speaking of sara, thinking about this conversation taking place chronologically before deciding to make truce with her
because yeah, it's him :' )
but also, every other character i've played,,,,
shin --> rlnami thinking about what effect this might have had on him despite him not remembering it.... it probably did reinforce some of his fears rip
and that's another batch down!
shin --> subaru having a lot of fun with this one bc shin naturally tends to sink into these scenarios and he's managed to start to tread water but occasionally goes under a bit
shin --> inaba rolled to see his thoughts on something and got a natural 1??? so i guess that manifests as 'putting it badly'
this scenario has been around for a while i'm lovingly taking it down from the shelf
annie gets full credit for it
me shaking shin like be just a touch less self absorbed right now
also kills me he's interpreted it as 'dragging others into trouble is the only thing that excites me' and not 'getting in trouble is the only thing that excites me' :' )
i'm also thinking about daemons but actually also because Pathologic never completely leaves my brain, the Tragedians some characters have, that speak and describe their thoughts
shin --> sara im like. shin. please.
he's trying but he's still kind of feeling this out :' )
a part of him that loves him like that, specifically....
shin --> inaba a lot of the dreamscape vids are still shaking out but this is the result so far
shin --> subaru i'm picturing the vibe of this house with the sunset and dust dancing in it hhh
shin --> inaba makes him wonder what's up with the memory wiping even more
meng yao and shin cr is interesting bc it's not super close but it's not fraught, either
now that we have furry jail cage this is just something he's kicking around
also backing up i love shin getting to pull a kris deltarune around the dialogue options
ME INNOCENT AS CAN BE!!! and im glad you're enjoying the adventure in subaru's, it's fun writing these too
dsfddsfdgffsdgf points at my eyes points at urs
yisssss the dreamscapes really are fun it's like a little DM session
thank you for this adventure peace i really am enjoying it : D
the symbolisms.... also poor subaru :' )
sfdgffdfsfd 'perish' and 'begging you to forget' next to each other in my inbox
shin --> inaba me wondering if this is a little too hostile... but i'm having fun
me tying in the symbolism of the various scenarios like huehuehue
me thinking about which dates to use for the latter but it's fine i think
shin --> inaba he was dedicated to leaving no trace of his existence...
u can tell i've got the ill brain floating bc i accidentally replied to the wrong post here for a hot sec
she's pulled up a specific instance of time
shin --> subaru one of the interesting minor threads in yogen is shin like okay he's been picking up a lot of small skills but one of them is... walking someone through a memory
it started with the memory lantern, then he did that with joe, and now he's sort of trying to apply the same principle here, it's interesting
shin --> inaba i keep thinking about how he really was that close to graduating
nooooooo my half done tags again
for some reason firefox closed and i accidentally opened and closed a window before i realised what I was doing and of course that became the 'last session'
shin --> midori stress levels spiking but he's taken even more notes from ranger and inaba
not his shallow breathing this man is so weird
look at his meow meow...

trying... sighs midori has missed it
fdgfhfgdfsdgf look at his little creacher.... alone on the streets with tattered up ears now
shin and midori fightin for their lives rn
it's a verbal tug of war im crying
shin --> ranger trying to work around to him offering a checkup trade but he's getting side tracked
i do love this tho it's like they've come full circle with shin trying to sell him something
IM CRYING HIDE AND SEEK IS NOT HIS GAME
LISTEN HE'S BEEN PLAYING IT FOR NINE DAYS HE'S DONE
looking for her body
but also it's speaking to his increasing loosening about posting on the network :' )
sometimes he does work smarter and not harder
how he tried to look for her the same amt of days he hunted for hiyori
:'''' ) if he gets attached to u he will go to bat for you and that's the truth
he's concerned and it's doing this
definitely contemplating giving her a gun
shin --> helena 'i'd be the same if i were you' shin like 'that's so much to process i won't' im cryig
shin --> helena keep thinking about shin and jealousy bc he doesn't show it much but... he does have a little of that streak in him
except it's less outright jealousy and more like. contact starvation and defensiveness... maybe. need to spin it

LINTTTT THIS IS GETTING TO ME HELP
i didn't realise it so shin didn't realise it rip
when shin gets up ready to go wherever midori leads him next
YEAH poor guy
he's just pingballing between what worked last time and what didn't work last time
he's like a roomba he bumps into a wall and then turns 30 degrees and bumps into another wall
me reading this like for a hot minute i thought we literally put shin AI in a roomba
maybe we should do that tbh
if he cant be a dynamo he can at least be a roomba
sdfdgsfdgf he's just happy to move around a bit
just slap a camera and speaker on it
when shin ai has to clean up moon room 4
he has to eat so much blood
shin --> helena me holding this soup of themes of memory and information and truth and lies in my hands like god i love yogen
shin --> rantaro keep looking at this like 'this is such a shounen introduction' im crying
midori got his eye on yall
oh i bet
he's got his leetle surveillance station
got his caramel popcorn
IUGH... LIKE A FAMILY REUNION
catching up with the shin helena alicedashians
dsfdfsfdgf it's like the season finale..... with a plotwisthanger
if it's got sound he's been getting to hear what shin's been up to, too
kinda adorable of shin preparing to answer the door if its midori at least he looks tough and then calming down when its alice
ugh adorable ist like watching animal planet
the power dynamics how theyre STILL there and shin dont know love it
watching the leetle rabbits and stripy dog.... midori moving from poems to documentary narration
YEAH that sort of thing's really hard to shake even when you're making an effort
ugh watching a shin in his natural habitat when a helena is around
there's too many marks and scars on him
sfdfgdfsfd his natural habitat i'm crying
i bumped up to a premium paid just bc this was the perfect icon
juuuuust a leetle stressed
can't kick maple out of his room :'' )
i love that the dreamscape lets me get metaphorical with the icons. is he holding a card? in a sense
i love the theme cropping up in yogen of the Sacrifice as a weapon
shin + kanna --> alice shin doing that thing where he pays for food bc he's trying to be a good older brother and is determinedly not thinking about his bank account
im crying at 'grisly substitute trellis'
wakes up, squints at clock, oh no
pats cheeks AC today, I think
shin --> midori tfw you scare a guy so bad it loops around into him NOT doing what you want him to
shin --> rantaro im crying they're just putting the sims minuses over each other's heads
kills me bc it's like they're speaking different languages
CRYING... loving this whole interaction rn actually
I KNOW im like.
the contrast is killing me, lies on floor
rude, shin says, after having punched a guy
shin like hang on is this me???
the ultimate result of kin assigning
shin like 'yeah trusting me is a bad idea actually' starts pushing away on purpose i've got my head in my hands
i'm spinning it in my head but there really is an internal contradiction shin's been stuck on for quite a while and it's hh bc it's coming out here
the specific word used in canon
shin like
i am burning one bridge and lightly toasting three others. im sure this'll work out
it kills me bc like. shin is a very loyal person and rantaro's earnt that loyalty conflicted feelings aside it's just......... absolutely not apparent from what he's doing at all
he did get a fifteen so he manages to shut up after that last sentence instead of digging even deeper... taking a page out of keiji's book, ironically
i keep thinking about this?
i closes my eyes so i do not see
this is why helena woke up she sensed somewhere that her bestie was being dumb as hell
she sensed the disturbance in the force
helena, in her medical coma: alright shin's about to get himself decked let me get up
every new tag in this also makes his mention of rantaro in the reunion thread retroactively sadly funnier
sfdgfgdfdgf
hang on where's that meme
NOT helena and komaeda both gotta wake up from their comas to stop ppl
helena: do not hold rantaro accountable when he doesn't remember shit
shin: (already having set fire to the bridge) what
pfle: its true hope gang had to return
dynamo's next emergency code will be one that, when activated, tracks down shin's location and shocks him for whatever dumb thing he said
shin, with this flaming house in the background, sirens, smoke billowing out: yeah he didn't remember me, anyway,,,,,
god that code would be doing both yogen and shin a public service
thinkin abt shin dug this hole himself
NNOT HIS FLAMING HOUSE IN THE BACKGROUND
honestly can we just put that emergency code in generally, i'm tired of ppl here embarrassing themselves
HELP maybe it can be a volunteer service
its like gambling addicts that ban themselves from casinos
when will amami almost kill shin and then back off
we can repeat the process
you can ask to be put on the "shock me if i put my whole foot in my mouth" list
日和
3 years ago @Edit 3 years ago
this is why we love dynamo

they are saving these ppl from themselves
code for "someone said some really dumb shit"
i think it should be, there's some folks here who just really need it
maybe not like full body but like a light taser
add, disappointed, turning down the output
thinkin abt how subaru got shocked, amami got shocked, shins on the list
CRYING SHIN'S ADDICTIVE NATURE BUT IT'S TO PUTTING HIS FOOT IN HIS MOUTH
the trio alive and strong today
dsfdsdfddf god you're right it IS the trio
about to turn on shin's location just like
you have to let shin handle this this is how hope happens
dsfdgsfdgf literally hey OP where are you right now
hes had too much handholding he had a year
to learn how to people now hes trying w amami we allow this
SFDGFDFGFGFD HE ALREADY HAS HEART PROBLEMS
amami's fine but im worried komaeda's going to wake up from his coma early just to stab shin and teach him the same lesson subaru learned that one meeting
when we have the hope talk
komaeda DID stab subaru for acting up at amami
NOT u breaking the timeline
chuubo's has my back here once again
"watch your back around amachan" camera cuts to komaeda stabbing subaru in his with the multitoool
NOT KOMAEDA RISING FROM THE GRAVE TO SHAME SHINKIND
AND THEN HE'LL BE AT THE STUDENT STORE
AND WHEN SHIN TAKES HIS SHIFT HE'LL JUST STAB HIM
ITS THE SAME AS PUNCHING AMAMI OUT THE BLUE
if this is how shin uses his one shot of his one shot taser i'll be very pleased
SLKDKSLDKLJSD NOT HIS TASER
i NEED komaaeda and shin to fight it out in the student store now ngl
i did not know i needed this but i do
good tell ranger the results either way
this is not cute, komaedalings only do this when stressed
KNIFE FIGHT AT THE STUDENT STORE WHEN THE SHIFT CHANGES OVER
is komaeda going to get yelled at for coming back with vengeance
is the komaedaling video cute
ADD GAVE KOMAEDA THIS HAND AND FOR WHAT... NOT TO STAB PEOPLE?
yeah honestly he missed his first stabbing
if you stab shin you're never getting called komaeda again
i think he needs to get his fix now
thinking about it tho bc on the one hand, funny as hell, on the other, do i want to give shin more trauma
NOT BANISHED TO NAGITO LAND
wheels over to start bonking w the cane
NOW WE KNOW KOMAEDA STABS PEOPLE WHEN UR MEAN TO HIS ULTIMATES HE ONLY HAS SO MANY
SO? HE HURT HIMSELF IN THE PROCESS
NOT GO BACK TO SLEEOP WHY ARE YOU BOOING ME IM RIGHT
THAT'S TRUE, HE DID PUNCH AN ULTIMATE
on the one hand komaeda is right
on the other hand can he not he has worried nami enough
U TALK SOOO MUCH ABOUT WANTING TO SEE HIS HOPE AND HIM LEARNING AND U WON'T LET HIM SUFFER ON HIS OWN TIME
komaeda gripping his hand like arthur meme
'he don't bite' 'YES HE DO'
he can let it go this once right?
the arthur meme w adds claw
I'M CRYING it'd be for her and amami's sake tho :c
im crying tho at 'he already took damage' it was like his pokemon struggle move, with the recoil
take him into VR and kill him there
THIS YOUR ONE CHANCE SHIN.............. ILL LET IT SLIDE!!
crying at the concept of komaeda coming in, ominously putting it down on the student store counter in front of him, then picking it back up and walking away
komaeda like stabbing the wall right next to shin's head with the claw like "ill let it slide.......... once"
yes good
make him sweat a little
this is not the chara development i thought he would get but shin a lucky one avoiding komaeda's wrath....................once
lock eyes and make the throat cutting motion whenever theyre in the same room w\ an ultimate around
shin back to being utterly terrified of komaeda again, as god intended
to be fair he is scary if you threaten his ultimates
when komaeda and shin are the public enemies this year in yogen
THEY REALLY ARE IM CRYING
im crying at how much we have like
year one of yogen: shin making bonds, making friends, slowly healing
year two of yogen: shin voice i'll put it over here with the rest of the fire
tbf he is trying to turn things around a little.... it's just uh. well, he's trying!
oh heck the bonus ac page looks AMAZING thank you bunny
oh please thank
kagehira!! enh was kind enough to redo the code for all the pages for us
oh that's the good stuff, thanks ehn
huh, some prices and stock have changed too
cheaper adderstones makes sense given we have Less Ghosts now
i just fucking gasped at the adderstone MY COPYPASTE ERROR
THANK U FOR CATCHING THAT I'M LAUGHIGN SO HARD
SFDGFSDFD SORRY
is that why silver cross is five bc i remember it being three adsfd sorry i didn't intend to be nitpicking
REALLY happy if you like it though

thank u...
IT'S SO GOOD thank you very much
i think the cross is maybe supposed to be like that but bun would know for sure and can fix if not :3c
it might be my memory being wrong but i think the gold chain and silver cross were three as a pair lemme check
yeah i got the gold chain for three
i'm crying rantaro getting two firsts here
- getting punched by shin of all people
- breaking shin completely
just a little a psychotic break, as the opposite of a treat
okay i am. trying to complete AC tonight but it is 1am and i am too tired to function so zzz
got a decent chunk done though
when I go to shin and pat him and tell him everything is OK after he's broken down midori will be here for him <3
dsfdgsdfdg you've got until he's mysteriously better again on the 24th
this probably is in no small part just.... months and months of stress coming home to roost as well
bunny mentioned the theme of names earlier and i'm holding it cupped in my hands
crying... im so sorry shin i felt SO bad with that last tag but amami is just... man standing emoji...
dsfdgfsfd i feel sorry or amami honestly this random guy just coming over, punching you, trying to manipulate you, and then having a mental breakdown in quick succession
nobody is having a good time here
keep thinking about him fixating on being here first because helena used it to reassure him
god this was a good thread though can't wait to see what results from this
midori wants in ur HEAD soOOO BAD
but this was such a cute thread im glad komaeda and ranger and shin and amami gettin the goods like this
im crying it's killing me bc i know the helena thread happens the next day so he has to be okay ish there
god im crying tho yeah he's in the perfect state for someone to reach into his brain and fish around
i knowwww it's such a good thread april really is breakdown month huh
AM SO SAD HES GUNNA BE FIXED SOON
I WANT IN HIS HEAD SO BAD
god, the parallels

did not intend but yet
SDFDGFSD IM SORRY NMS, I DID NOT EXPECT THIS
its ok amami will break him again
come sit in the nurse's office shin
be healed by calm conversation
midori's like that one eric andre meme LET ME IN, LET ME IIIIIN
fdgfd true. the faultline's still there. he's feeling better in the morning but also
yisssss
calm conversation with friends
shin and lena can heal each other after i dealt psychic damage to them both
sdfdgffdgf patching each other up while they look like that one scuffed shin icon
that.... really is the mood this month im
SIGHS... WICKED AND CHARMING
not april's breakdown month
the way no one understood the assignment
:''' ) shin did make a true with sara so... he gets an E instead of an F
that's true, i'll give him an e
it's okay if what komaeda says is right this will all lead to stronger bonds in the end or smth
april month of friendship AND breakdowns
listen i did this to improve my bonds
stronger than ever before
gonna take a quick break and then quickly send in bonus ac and vending machine
aand that's me snuck under the wire

i.... will definitely not leave it this late next month holy shit
shin ai is not in roomba form, he sits in that laptop until he has a nice and long talk w midori. they deserve that
yesssss
i'm coming for you may, we will have this cute(????) conversation
his leetle test of his meow mewo
CUTE yeah sighs wistfully oh shin ai would you always come with me to the nurse's office to sign a workplace violence form if I asked you to
umm sure but i don't... have hands.......
crying it really is that 'oh shin ai we're really in it now' meme
his shin that actually goes to vet checkups
i do keep thinking abt like
that brief exchange of like 'i don't care about u anymore' 'i see you've grown' i keep thinking about like, the contrast between who shin is now and who he was then
and like, what midori thinks of that, it interests me
shin himself has been like 'i've changed since i was in yogen and they can't have that' as a salve and it gets interesting even further with the maple thing and there's a lot i'm spinning it
but anyway i have so much shin ai art for icons in my bookmarks and new icon slots for them so
considering their first thread his shin is all bark no bite (when he used sara as an excuse to leave, and then he tries to find a leg to stand on) but then he's getting smacked by maple and having breakdowns so weighing all this together... sighs shin still needs him on the social / emotional front
just looking at him go like 'yareyare'
"that's bc midoris existence is hurting him" if we ignore that part
if we ignore that part!! clearly he needs to come back under midori's wing, he'll teach him right (sound of shin hissing)
YEAH YEAH... I think you give him a few more threads with shin and then he can come to a conclusion but atm it's like oh he's still struggling to walk but he won't take my hand so he's falling over
STOPPP ur lucky I didn't follow u in mission hell would have fixed him there
sfdgffdf wait which mission hell
when shin spends time with midori you'll see, midori will have him fixing all his broken cr
sdfgf yeah to midori i imagine it's kind of sad to watch
like a coyote trapped in barbed wire but it snaps at u if you go to untangle it
the missions that posted earlier last night I did think abt waiting for u to join one and joining ur group w lonnie
midoris not part of asunaro anymore so now this is just what he's used to, he's used to fixing shins problems because shin depends on him and now he's just fighting back for no reason but it's fine!! they'll connect on a tech level the olive branch
OH
dsfdgfdfs crying i got busy with writing the other stuff and then i was like oh shit i need to actually sign up for the mission and by then it was like
so many slots already full
NO UR FINE IM LAUGHING ITS OK LONNIE LITERALLY MESSAGED ME WHILE I WAS SLEEP AND WAS LIKE SIGN UPS!!! so I had to post but had shin Been On there and Alone would have chased him
dsfdgffdgfh hang on i have the perfect drop for this
this is just all of the yttd candidates honestly
but yisss i love midori like. dangling the cat toy like psppspspsps come on... don't u want some more coding knowledge
keep thinking about inaba and shin being like wow i don't want medicine anymore and midori's like i am just standing here
STOPPP I ACTUALLY LISTENED TO THAT A FEW DAYS AGOOOO
i have a whole mental yttd amv to it in my head, i am not ashamed
HE IS LITERALLY STANDING HERE he can do everything why not go under his wing you learn more that way!! inaba only dislikes midori bc he uses her first name... that's a her problem, but shin? he isn't that low on the list in midori's mind, he can still cooperate!!
HELP when you sketch it for us
dsfdgdsfd first i gotta draw a thing for peace i need the art juice to come back again honestly
inaba getting bumped like five places down the list for 'bloated'
shin can still co-operate, he's going to fight every step of the way but it's like..... people only have so much resilience?
which honestly shin knows and is terrified by
only it's also that he's built midori up in his head a lot for good and ill... hasn't seen him for three years after all... so to him it's like. this is one of midori's powers, seizing hearts
god... please I swear you see me trying to save midori and inabas cr but inaba has said so many things that makes midori a sim and the bloated comment is -- the biggest sim negativity drop but i believe in her as for shin if he let's midori play with him he can learn a lot from midori I'm sure they are different people here now
WHEN shin breaks down and let's his heart be seized and he should have known from the start there's no way to win against midori unless you kill him
shin that song like "history never repeats, i tell myself, before i fall asleep" abt their cr
honestly he's really close to the edge, he's holding it together with spit and ducttape rn... keep thinking about him being calmed down by sara that one time and he was like 'it was her powers' shin never change
sdfdgfgdffd funny you should say about kill i woke up at 1am and sketched out a whole thing for why/how shin would murder which did involve midori but after i was like... would he actually do this/does it mess things up thematically so i need to think on it a bit
but yeah with shin and midori it really is like 'don't kid yourself, you were never even a player' bc shin's been seeing it as like, how many people he can snatch out of midori's jaws bc that's how he approaches it, it worked with the exams, get them out of harms way...
but he's just so woefully underequipped for it, it's like in sports when someone is running at someone and they just have their hand on their forehead stopping them easily
hes so funny im crying, because midori knows shin best (how funny) and so he knows how to worm his way in without causing shin to close any doors so it's like why even fight him, is midori doing anything wrong, you can trust him this time around
god
bad end is my mental image of him just leaning into midori and letting him put an arm around/hand on his shoulder or ruffle his hair or smth. just utterly spent and done
hhh yeah, he knows shin well enough to remake him from the ground up he knows how he ticks perfectly and that's smth that keeps shin up at night. he never got the visceral realisation of the ai logs but he's clever enough to put 2 and 2 together
i do think one change is that if that sort of thing happens it won't be because shin trusts him again but bc he's just. too tired to care anymore, such that trust doesn't even enter the picture bc for trust to matter you have to care about the results of it
ironically there's a little of that with helena where he's just gone like '...okay' on telling her things mixed in with 50% i trust you with these things
it'd be learnt helplessness, basically
yogen has a funny way of bringing people together I think, but I'm crying if it'd be because midori wears him down and then it's likenhes not doing anything to warrant any aggression from people and then it starts to make shin look crazy so it's fine to give up he knows midori would just take care of him anyway and chide that he shouldn't have fought
dsfdgfhf i love the cassandra element so much honestly, we're starting to see that with rantaro and it's so good
shin's existing cr literally the thing keeping him from wondering if he is crazy himself bc that's the sort of thing you really need mental anchors for
he can go to sara and be like that happened right and get a yes and then shore up that listing pillar back up again
but we're not quite at that stage yet
thinking about midori's chiding and lying on the floor like 'see how much easier it is now?'
that said like, in the end ooc i would prefer that like. endgame is not this. maybe skirting it, maybe a chainsaw man moment but ultimately you can't step in the same river twice and i do want shin to be able to escape the orbit
is that realistic? maybe not, but it's like. the 'et died on the way to his home planet' a bit for me
which like, i've got to figure out how that gels with cr... but shin's warnings now being an opt in thing is a good set up i think
NOT A CHAINSAW MAN sighs lots and lots of hugs, but in the end I'm more of a they can cooperate type of girl bc since asunaro doesn't play his hand you don't have to like him, like there's no way to win against him because we'll since shin smacked really drives it home, but he's kinda chillin and will be annoying so I'm sorry shin has to deal with his
fdgfhhgdf yeah they'll probably settle into SOME kind of equilibrium given that they're both in the same place and around.... it's like a cold war situation except only from shin's end. cooperation isn't impossible since he cooperates with sara in attractions and things while thinking she's exactly as bad so there's that at least
dsfdgfhgj he's gonna incinerate it, im sorry
scarf privileges ended at midori now nene's is my new comfort object
why do you tear us apart shin the scarf is what connected us </3 sighs heartbroken!!!
but yes I think things will be fine (maybe) I trust in midori not to make it hard for himself bc the yttds do that to themselves so he watches the fire like hmm!! when do I step in
he's snapping this red string of fate!!! god i'm still thinking about how sara still has one of them...
he still has the other too, he couldn't get rid of it, he's just stuffed it in a corner out of sight out of mind :' )
sdgfhgdfdgfh he's just like. standing there with sunglasses and a sipping his drink like 'do u want this fire extinguisher or no?'
and in response shin briefly comes out of the fire to grab more gasoline and go back in
it is darkly funny how much him just showing up threw things into chaos, i'm thinking about the meeting shin called and crying
but yeah we'll see how things go!
IM CRYING THE YTTDS LITERALLY IN SHAMBLES ABT MIDORI AND HE AINT DONE ANYTHING
every time I look midori is eating m&ms and the yttds having a fight and he's like well.
at this point it's like his soaps
watching this season of yogen on his little screens with shin ai
friday night hangout
wait did he kill stephanie or did i misremember
nobody knows he did that tho so everyone has NO legs to stand on