So this week has been kind of a perfect storm of Exhausting Shit Happening

I’ve been off my meds so concentration ability has been null and I’ve been barely treading water, which after finally getting my doctor appointment I figured would get resolved

But it turns out my heartrate was kinda high at rest and that was reason enough for my doc to go “okay well I’m hesitant to write a refill for a stimulant” and like

I get it, and I appreciate the concern

But A: my heart has always been a little excitable and it’s never been an issue, even on adderall,

B: I had walked most of the way there and I’m out of shape so of course it’s high

C: adderall is still the only medication that has ever let me focus like a normal person and I’m currently in an intensive program that I’m already starting to fall behind on due to not having access to the meds that help me to focus like a normal person

i got blood work to check for thyroid weirdness and an ekg and both came back normal and my gp acknowledged this and was like “....okay well it’s mostly normal but why don’t we wait a month and see?”

And I’m just like sure

Anyway on top of me struggling with school my body picked this week also to send me through the fucking pain blender and I’ve missed like two days of class and am now playing Extra Catchup [Hard Mode]

I’m tired and my body hurts. I want a break but instead I gotta do a couple days worth of homework and also a small project

wtb new body please

Oh yeah also on top of all of this my landlords tried to hike our rent by a whopping 50% before our lease was even up because my other roomie tried to move out and replace themself with another person which shouldn’t have been an issue but the landlords want to make it one

So that’s a thing we gotta deal with yippee

update: still playing catch-up and trying not to scream over shitty math brain

i wish this was easyyyyy aaaaaa i hate technical interview practice im gonna chew my arms off