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大機率寫完腦補完就當爽了不寫正文

但真的好爽
一直在翻原作小說+fan wiki補充資料

發現原來要寫長篇真的好難

constellation white

ok成晚掛著睇電視

開了分身

……

兄弟線dynamic反而冇仔細諗

so wt I actually care: reg&cissa, reg&elves

shit I don't know how to handle this
relationship development
I'm weak at this

headache

好難

點放多兩個人落去

唔想佢哋乜都唔做

btw why is everyone thinking no.12 is big?????
I thought mansiones of other houses are real enormous???
like they might even have a fontaine in their garden and shit? and surrounded by a fucking forest???

ok
it's hard to make his line in character

but I will try

ok first scene done

可能可以搞點9毛生上肚pads

幹我超俗

又想開單篇流水帳新坑

燥底s'好像有點辣

我流setting: walburga對kreacher冇Reg對Kreacher咁好咁友善
但係walburga係主人 係符合家族期望嘅成員aka血統歧視
所以對kreacher嚟講佢就係最好嘅女主人

我流setting: Reg叛變去山洞係自殺傾向

雖然山洞隻potion唔係支裝水搞得掂
但係既然Kreacher探過路知道流程 Reg咩準備都冇用生命值硬接都唔make sense

所以推論係：
Reg本身係理想主義者
覺得黑魔王真係會創造一個巫師唔使避開麻瓜自由自在嘅社會
而事實係黑魔王想做嘅係種族滅絕
Reg睇唔起麻瓜同非純血 唔代表佢想屠殺/折磨佢哋
但係佢又唔可以轉陣營 因為公然背叛會死 仲會令家族其他成員有危險
鳳凰會都未必信佢
所以：
- 被欺騙嘅憤怒；
- 喺極權組織下工作嘅壓力；
- 戰爭中嘅壓力; - 背負家庭嘅壓力下 Reg just wanna find a way out what is a better way than vanishing from the world by sacrificing your life to steal a piece of your ex boss' soul?

咁樣就可以
1. 報復前上司
2. 逃離所有壓力來源又唔會連累到家人
3. 算係為自己贖罪

所以喺我setting入面如果說Reg為咗攞分靈體而死係無私嘅話我唔同意
因為Reg做呢件事有私心
如果佢冇私心就唔會留張note

thus: reg going to the cave is a suicidal attempt

suicide but positive

急切需要知道reg係邊隊球隊嘅fans

開朗活潑reg好……um……

diu我就知道

仆街了會唔會比人告抄襲

現在的我只想看軒轅十四

cock sleeve reg

痴線勁撚尷尬
寫到佢哋啲對話好似ex喺度互相指責對方以前點仆街咁
係咪因為睇咗iswim

聽落似拍拖十年又分手十年嘅ex
但其實係兩兄弟

love

好悶
寫得好平舖直敘

好kick

提問：s某能否被guilt-trip

imagine pads somehow survived part5 and be still alive in part7, the trio would still give the locket to Krecher, and pads just have to watch bc he and reg was not close

決定起碼寫好5個chapters先post

now working on ch.2

mais pq la tarte au citron?????

想玩啲有病兄弟
like real sick pureblood culture(?) or just them
like in crimson peak but not the 19th centuries background but the family dynamic

with walburga's a+ parenting

New theory:
如果喺戰爭其間reg同佢哥講佢當初後悔加入食死人想換陣營
- 佢哥第一時間會笑鳩佢“I told you so”
- 同時會覺得reg係up to something
- 要reg完全表示自己係unarmed/同等無害先會肯聽佢講
- 佢唔會完全信reg但都唔會放reg走
- 可能會為咗唔影響到其他同伴安危所以自己keep住(kidnappe)reg先
- or alternitive大義滅親直接打包入阿茲卡班

如果喺戰爭後reg同佢哥講自己當初想換陣營
- 佢哥第一時間會問做乜唔搵我同我講 我可以幫你

我流headcanon:
- pad's
1)calling reg "reg" as a nickname
2)calling reg "reggie" only when they're little, or referring reg as a baby/child when they grow up, mostly when pad's wanna start a fight

- reg
1)一般唔會喺公眾場合用nickname bc that's inappropriate (aristocratic culture lmao)
2)會用nickname只會喺私底下嘅場合
不論係對cisssa定佢哥

其實gang bang得一個bottom其他都係top個個排隊等輪米嗰陣要做啲咩
睇住劣？

我又想睇家庭觀念唔正常嘅reg
his brother fucks him
so when his brother ran away and found himself a new family along with a new brother
so reg wondered, does it mean that his brother is fucking his new brother now?

仆街睇完完全唔夠喉

可唔可以多啲slash content

me to myself

佢哋又喺我個腦度鬧交

幹
好想讓他們抱抱
但是siri不抱抱
pad's才抱抱

哥: 總之有咩事搵咗我先
reg: ok
→冇搵過

英國人講嘢真係好撚婉轉

when will they cuddle on a sofa

pt 5?

but they're going to st. mungo's tgt?
I assume they'll be home tgt????

maybe at pt 6?

After reg confronted to headmaster?
and he back home real tired? sentimental and physical

then reg need mental support
and pads home, seeing reg being this tired, late at night

但係可以之前都試過

I need pads don't know what to do with his brother and 唔做人
bc that would be easier

then they cuddle
in garden perhaps???????

身心俱疲所以決定唔做人嘅pads好可愛

睇返原來講咗三次

「有咩事搵咗我先」
→冇搵過

LMAO
imagine, if prongs have a crush on someone, pads would give anything to be the wingman
but if reg's having a crush on someone or even in a relationship, pads is so gonna ruin it

he just wanna hurt reg
reg: I know I mean nothing to you compared with your chosen family, but I never know that you hate me this much
pads oO(Reg is not wrong but that's not what I wanted tho?)
so it makes pads wonder what is wrong with himself

he don't like reg or what reg represents like the family and the values and the family values
if anyone wants to hurt reg, he will fight whomever the fucker is, but if Reg is with someone, he want to hurt reg himself

pads oO(do I hate reg this much?)

the thought of he wanted to hurt reg or perhaps even enjoyed it makes him feel sick
maybe he really am the worst brother ever
pads: sigh

幹
兄弟佔好多篇幅
明明是想走主線的

想睇reg戰鹿

主線
少啲感情線

shit how do I balance them

part of me want pad to realise his baby brother was dead
like dead dead
everyone used to close to him is also dead, except for an elf
unlike prongs, whom he could talk about, he could share memories with friends, acquaintances.
whom he could mourn, even a toast, if he wants to

but no one mourn reg, I mean pad could mourn him, his frds would let him, but not with him.

so pad is the one who left with the memory, alone, bc no one knows who reg is, what he likes, what he hates

想睇everyone live except reg au

or once again, pad could save everyone except for reg bc he didn't know how he died

or狗可以選擇一個時間點重生
但somehow reg＆鹿只能救回一個(?) or兩個都能救但風險會高很多(?)
狗沒有多猶豫就決定救鹿 因為那是他整輩子最大的遺憾
然後狗就能成功活到pt 7
知道了山洞的事 狗臉色一下子變得很難看
朋友包括鹿都在安慰 只當狗是在自責怪錯弟弟了
沒有人知道狗其實有過救reg的機會
狗沒有後悔當初選了鹿 但接下來的人生就每天想著自己19歲就死掉的弟弟

why am I so keen on seeing pad suffer
am I a pervert

明明本傳狗都一直在suffer

越不後悔才越自責
就算狗知道所有發生的事 任他選一百萬次他都會選鹿

笑死
reg just can't win him
就算細佬有親情愛情疊加buff
佢就係贏唔到鹿喺狗心目中嘅地位lmao

雖然兩個七月尾細路都有機會中預言
但係真心覺得potters先係最準確嗰個
唔係話longbottom夫婦就唔會為個仔犧牲
而係voldemort未必會猶豫殺唔殺longbottom夫婦
因為得lily先係有人求情希望voldemort唔好殺嘅人

後來鹿知道狗曾經有過選擇
鹿: (best mate as always) 如果你是後悔了我也能理解 不必太自責
狗: 問題是我從沒有後悔

又想睇啲好撚離譜嘅兄弟

they both know that they want each other
but they can't
if they can't fuck each other so they'll fuck anyone they could get

kay, I want them to have the "you didn't care about me then, why would you care now" fight

also the whole "you left us" thing

so what about my headcanon attention seeker pad and praise kink reg

oh imagine
pad loves reg but Reg has always been into men that much older than him
some kind of electra complex? oedipus complex?

he can't help but obsessed with those authority figures
and seek affirmation from them
+praise kink

imagine pad, the crush of whole school, can fuck whoever he wants, but except for reg

reg is immune to his brother after all, they grew up tgt

WHAT IF!!!
reg went to astronomy tower to see the constellation when he misses his brother
but pad also did the same
*check constellation map
and they never met each other bc the two constellations are seen in different season???

I'm back bb

悲報
Scotland睇唔到canis major

又好似睇到

janvier au sud

canis major

shit
其實時間勁近

一月同四月

中間二三月有機會一齊睇到

make sense

accio前額葉

I need a pad falling down on bed/sofa dramatically scene

當生活給你檸檬，用來做檸檬撻

冇人覺得救世主同reg好1874咩

未識就已經死咗

大家都係有兩院特質
然後都係seeker

本來他只是進來再看看能不能找到更多線索
一些筆記或者研究資料
然後他在一個上鎖的抽屜裡找到一本筆記本

ohsh
有人寫過c:

er...

譯名有分別嘅可以加埋原文嘅名做備註

basically when I realised dogs have their favourite toys
pretty much the moment I acknowledged each dog is an individual

imma call this 星軌something

reg must mention things like complaining why pad just won't shut up for a while and nod and do as their mother said to shut her up
be patient and tolerate their mother, to make things easier for them

then when pad pick thing up reg realises that he had never, not a single time, standing on his side during those fights with their mother

he's always been the good child, obedient, sacrificing, devoting
giving a little of himself, bit by bit, just to keep the family tgt
"I've been doing this all long, why wouldn't you do the same?"

ok
still thinking of diplomatic interfered au...

like東西德
or vichy regime

like Marlene's still alive, 鹿夫婦 are still alive
so that there'll be less loss cost/sunk cost?

ministry同boss negotiate, bc no one can afford this endless war anymore

一係淪陷區咁整個割讓領地
or比部分ministry高層嘅位比boss啲人坐

boss陣營有好多上流社會嘅家族=識政治談判

搵日grp好佢出個腦洞post

reg when he was told the boss is a half blood grown-up in an orphanage: so the Lord was what? poor? Oh that's why he never wear shoes

btw pt4
reg meets moon and promises him a reference letter to a publisher he has good relation with

pt5 the twins give reg their invention fireworks(?)
and reg uses it in the battle of ministry

Wood being a passionate keeper
"wdym, you can't cancel quidditch. "

Dean Thomas being bothered 24/7

pad barely get mad at prongs

devoted suicidal reg

玩死人梗
until pad knows that he really died in the cave

pad gets mad when Reg keep joking on his own death

自毀傾向
樂觀的自毀傾向

they both are self destructive
but they also care for each other

so the thing is
they both being self destructive but also keeping each other from self destruction

Headmasters gaze is curious

一路睇一路想寫

湖水湧進鼻腔的刺痛

will the headmaster notice Reg's suicidal attempts