To avoid wrong expectation, I have to claim that I am neither a sanallite nor an anti. I just someone who watches some holomen clips.
Even though, Sana's graduation affects me a lot.

Unlike others, it was the model that first made me liked Sana. Though others have complained a lot about it, but -- the model has chin! Well I am not sure how to say that part correctly. I mean the skin connecting the chin and the neck. Also, the model has a lot of flexibility. It did amaze me.

I don't refer myself as a sanallite. I didn't follow her stream and send any super chats, as I didn't do so for any youtuber. I only watched clips if there's any.
But I like her. I like her crazy opening of the council debuts. I like how her bloom audience away at the end of that stream. I like how her flaunting her Jupiters and San's rocket.

She's so innocent. Though I didn't follow her stream, I do follow her channel. Every time I felt tired at work and saw the live icon by her channel, I would click into her stream, listening her laughing while playing Kirby or Pokémon or anything else --
I like her. I want her to succeed.

Once I worried about whether she is happy about her work. She steamed less and perhaps collabed less than others. I don't care about numbers, but I don't know whether she does. I was afraid that she wasn't having fun.

But I relieved on the day of her birthday. She got the game "BEEG SANA" and seemed to enjoy it. I have downloaded the game and almost complete the collection. She released her original song Astrogirl. I listened to it, nearly tearing when I heard she singing "I am not alone" and literally tearing when she met the council at the end of the MV.

She said she is not alone. I am glad for her.

It shocked me when I know her announcement about graduation. I haven't watched that video yet. I just can't.

I don't know the reason. Neither do I want to know.

Yet I cried. That day. The day after. While I saw her streaming. While the 3D debut of smol councilrys --
I don't refer myself as a sanallite, but she is the vtuber I want her to succeed the most.

I love you, Sana. We all love you.

But now all I can do is wishing you a good luck.

Go exploring the universe with your innocent and craziness.

And there is something I know I shouldn't say. But it's there, so I say it.
I wish you can be back, Sana.

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Why did I post this here instead of twitter?
First of all, I am a nerd. And the most important thing is, this is kind of my story, rather than Sana's. I doubt that whether this is meaningful for others to read.

And why did I write this in English?
I have to practice my English writing recently. Another even more selfish reason: I hope she can read it.