I've had a lot of time to think about this event in a really general way, but I admit that I haven't put much thought into like. How I personally would play in it

I'm not really into doing TV stuff with Fitz because the boy has done enough alter ego drama for the entire year

but he might be reacting to other people's? I think he'll be out of commission for at least one day while Jemma carves out his insides with her fucking bone knife

Fitz has not yet been to this horror movie so it'll all be fucking news to him

he had no idea his wife was a secret sociopath

Me in every event I've ever written as a mod. What am I doing? How have I had this in my head for three months and not thought about how I'd play it?

damua: LOL RIGHT? It's been like "oh right the TV thing" in shorthand since like may

Exactly!

I also have no plotting though because waves hand at my life except probably having a dark Knight Suzaku. So I'd happily plan a thing

oh man Suzaku probably has his hands full with the canonmate situation happening

isn't LL like straight up brainwashing a bunch of people this event?

but going back to the rambly toplevel bits

so Fitz is at minimum out of commission at maximum a little bloody dead for a while, but that's happening

but also he has castmates?? and probably has feelings about that which won't get expressed because Thor isn't around anymore and Lucifer's busy and he doesn't trust anyone else enough to be emotionally vulnerable

that. is probably something I should work on with him.

maybe throw him at some pirates or something they seem adult-aged

Kate? Maybe? not sure if they're there yet

or you know he'll just keep shtum and explode later

AND THEN THERE'S STEVE

Fair!

who exists but in this weird nebulous space

Fitz and pirates will be great!

I wish I could take you up on Fitz and Suzaku but he is A Boy and Fitz is too judgmental to open up to someone not old enough to drive a car internationally

BUT OKAY STEVE. Steve is. in a weird spot like

there are things that Can be done with Steve

but I'm also kind of having a minor crisis of wondering what I'm trying to get out of Steve

for a variety of interpersonal reasons that have no place in a plotting plurk

Steve with all the safeties stripped away would be the most obnoxiously good person helping old ladies cross the street

he could probably also be useful for tending to the injured/infirm

engaging with the mirrored versions of his friends

Wow he is old enough to drive a mech! But it's OK we can do a thing another time!

but I'm not entirely sure how to fit the pieces together

which I think might be a way to articulate the general struggle I'm having with Steve, actually? He just feels kind of. Tertiary

and I'm not sure what to do to have him be less on the sidelines of things

maybe it's just my general disdain for small talk threads, idk

I blew through all his "he came storming in ready to punch a nazi" stuff and I'm just like. Okay that's done, now what does he want

d....oes he want things?

idk it seems really early in the lifespan of a character for me to be at this point with him

I don't know that he's turning out to be a good fit :/

That's not to say that I'll turn down threads or anything! He just kind of desperately needs things to Do and I might need some help finding that for him

I can try and help, like I'm about to bounce to work but I got into a rut like that with suzaku (and then came LL and now he's got his hands full) so I'm always up for helping people out if such character corners

just soldier boy problems

And Steve and Suzaku are extremely similar thematically in many ways

omg @ Fitz not having experienced the joy that is id!Jemma.
I am so ready to stalk that. :>
and if you want to do anything with Daisy I am very ready :>

haha yeah he thinks she's the sane one

and leans on her pretty heavily on the regular because his brain is Swiss cheese and he's had to confront that recently

/pats him

Steve does have a werewolf roomie now.....lol. So idk if he'd wanna help in managing that somehow?

gently fling him at Kate

I was going to do AUd Kate BUT!

It wouldn't be nearly as much fun when ID Simmons comes out and chases Kate.

kindaklutzy: you could always do both! there's plenty of time and the twins only stay out for a day

excellent

Did you get enough sleep though?

what is sleep I don't understand what you're talking about

IDK but I'd like some more of it right now.

y'all, sleep more >:

if fitz needs adult friends i can offer up yennefer. idk how that would go but she is slowly befriending his wife

we can do zari and fitz if you want!! i really want cr with you

everyone has been very accommodating and nice and I want to acknowledge that before I return to being an enormous fussy baby in this plurk

so two days ago! I was in the middle of having a whole bunch of emotions about unrelated things. It was very much one of those things where you're impulsively like "what if I took every mild discomfort in my life and threw it all I the trash" and I recognized it and didn't act on any of the things

sidestepped a lot of petty arguments, realized I need to find a way to have some uncomfortable conversations with people who don't know there's a problem

THAT ASIDE, roleplay.

fuck it this is a sotrp now it can be both things

Fitz is cool, Fitz is fine, Fitz can tag out into whatever and not have a problem

and Steven Grant Rogers is trying to take a cannonball leap into a dumpster and I'm just like "what is your damage, dude. finish (1) whole thread"

part of this is recency bias. I've found two other characters who are fun to play and come without the enormous baggage of mcu

but I think the other part is just a general like. lack of dissatisfaction in his life? he's fairly well-adjusted, and that Good Person-ness should make him easy to throw around into other people's Stuff

but I find that a lot of what I wanted to do with him has been met with... idk I don't want to phrase it like I'm salty about other rpers. everyone has been cordial and delightful but I guess it's like. I think that bringing in a Steve effectively gave other people homework

and like. obligations

and I've been maybe a little too conscious of not wanting to saddle extra weight on people out of nowhere?

so maybe I came at the character from the wrong angle and it's like when you're hammering shit and don't adjust the nail when it starts going in bent and next thing you know there's a sharp spot at the back of your ikea furniture that you have to just ignore for the rest of forever

I didn't put the structure together well and now I'm looking at a weird janky shelf being like "oh nobody should put books on this it's shaky af."

I had the chance to boomerang him for a while today and it was like "does this spark joy in the other person? this feels like it might be rp homework for them"

idk that this isn't just more emotions splattering in a weird rorschach. just squinting at Steve and considering my motivations

that shelf analogy makes way too much sense omg

thanks friend ;-; I had some middle of the night Feels that had to come out

<3

as they should

You can always rant to me. At me. Whenever you need to. Just know that.

LOL oh THAT'S a can of worms

I am ready

I am a Very Aggressive Person in remission and I've put a lot of work into recognizing when my levels of "OMG FUCK THIS PERSON" actually match the situation that's happening

in remission

but sometimes I still need to be like "THIS IS MY PROBLEM AND IT'S A VERY SMALL THING BUT I HAVE ABOUT THREE BILLION FEELS ABOUT IT" and that needs to go in very particular vaults of people who already know how to handle me

but that sounds good! letting it out is good!

oh totally in remission

feelings don't change but growth comes from recognizing that the feelings are happening and changing the response to those feelings

and then sometimes the other person is just full of shit and being the bigger person means taking a deep breath and letting them be wrong

^ my natural state

haha omg that is such a big mood

that has 0 things to do with characters and plotting but I committed to this ramble

I have definitely been there

Sometimes when you're having a zillion feelings you just have to... let them happen and then deal with them when they're not so hot and blazing

exactly!

I mean right now it's a low stakes "WHY AM I NOT HAVING FUN WITH THIS CHARACTER" so there's that at least

if there's anything I can do, pls tell me

^ this

sometimes you have to get it out and go from there