but also i went to a brewery after work and shot the shit with a random old man

is this my dream life maybe

i still have zero brain. tomorrow i'm gonna recover to the best of my ability

i keep hearing people warn me howww to avoid manual labor but

i don't think they get that i could easily make several times as much for significantly fewer hours

i just wantttt to be able to do skilled manual labor. both cos it feels good but tbh

if we ever were to be burnt to the ground, i want skills that matter

i can do some pretty cool mental shit but i want more rounded-ness

art, writing, maths, philosophy, all that, i've got that down-pat. it's time i know how to plumb and weld and understand how pieces go together

let's do thisss.

if it becomes too much, i can always just go back to my old job where i work sooo much less and make so much more

but shit, what will that matter if things ever were to collapse

plus it feels so much better. i am so sore and i know it DID something

i didn't just build a profit for a company but i built actual things

end rant!