have you ever noticed how you can be worrying and stressing about something when you are safe? - been working on that a lot this summer.. thoughts of future, missing the PRESENT moment!! ugh... can be such a struggle! thankful for the people who teach a way to experience NOW, now, lol... not "later" when "things are perfect. anyone relate?
when ever things are going good for me, i am busy waiting for the bad to happen, and sadly, in the 41 years i've been alive, it always ends up being that way, october was our bad after a few months of really good 
YES!!! that's self abuse really. life has challenges, and we've made it so far... i'm just NOT gonna let my mind fuck with me like that.... i can totally see it now... but dang it takes work to "get still" and notice all the things around me supporting me. i so relate to what you said!
I'm always waiting for the next bad thing to happen. it makes enjoying the moment very hard.
SanuraSnowpaw: i hear you! it's us being in our minds... pure imagination!! not even real... and yes it's hard to present ourselves... it's like we are in a dream... Byron Katies work has helped me a lot. but still not easy!
caLLiecLine: exactly. I've gotten better but it is still a struggle.