tbh a lil bit tired of milord’s community

He cares too much and gain fame too fast that things are not all settled well (even until a year

U know the greater the community is, the more problems and conflicts they would create in it

Especially for someone like milord

Feels like he’s kinda, way too into it (just like me

Today have a small (okay maybe not too small) talk with Teresa

And find out the point is that the emptiness of my life makes me drop myself into it way too much

And this is definitely unhealthy

But I can’t help

But indeed that’s probably why I watched more streams from Ikey and Fuuchan

Cuz they are, in someway more mature and steady

For Uki, it’s sooooo sad that he ALWAYS streams on early mornings, which, I definitely am not awake or prob just about to sleep

But yeah it’s just some thoughts that I will prob stay a lil bit more away from kindred community and just enjoy some contents

And just immersed in the storylines of Ikey’s and chat of Fuu’s streaming

And maybe some collars and Enna/Wosemi(

*collabs

TIME TO SLEEP, RIGHT? MY DEAR BRAIN?

I HATE it how thoughts that have already contributed and justified just slip away from my mind

And also how bad am I at comprehending them

Okay let’s record it at least right now

(Tho I don’t even know if it’s the same that I just had

Emergency of faith➡️time to focus on reality and material facts

Faith is not actually something u can see

Prob it’s why microscopes is also italics

Cuz they’re related?

Faith is so idealistic(唯心), that’s why we need to focus on things materialistic(唯物) when we’re in our crisis of faith?

Like what we just discussed(with Teresa)?

HATE TO BE SO SLOW-MINDED N FORGETFUL

Okay bad mood

Scared by angy man

I HATE BIG COMMUNITY

Just entered Vox’s streaming, and after a silence, he is pissed off by someone or somethin’ I dunno

And I was freaked out

I mean, yeah, I am sometimes too vulnerable to aggression when I’m not prepared

That really scared me

No longer kindred anymore prob

I don’t fit in tis place

Just remember: enjoy the contents, leave them along

God I’m so freaking weak

In terms of masculine power(tho I hate this word

Got two free memberships today

Sonny n Fuu’s

I luv comfydants and the sheep piles(even the sprays and shame corner lmao

Random raid to Mille and end up subscribing her cuz her custom n face are so cute

God damn I’m losing my feet when leaved my bed for ten minutes

Coldness would one day eventually kill me

Oops one from Uki toooooo

btw the new wave, their cover(?) are soo hot

They got me

Prob prefer 7 to 6 lmao(sorry but, yeah

Okay, I think I’m probably done for Vox ASMR thing

Like, yeah I understand, there’s a lot of people enjoying the belittling or insulting things

But, it’s just, not my type

I don’t like the settings of the character that’s always ummm shallow? stupid? or something like that

I mean, I understand it’s a role play, but I just cannot get into it cuz nah I don’t like man that slap on woman’s face or insulting them

Just, nah

I mean, yeah, I know he’s sexy, he’s dominant, and many like that

But just, not me(btw I know it’s a role-play so i won’t have any opinion on Vox himself