How can somebody pass out five times a day without any consciousness

My already DELAYED paper progress: 20%

My body condition:
1) try to eat things every day end up nausea or stomachache

2) heartache all the time, and I have no time to go to hospital

3) ankles and wrists and back and waist hurt

4) I have cool blue palms! Anyone want some cool picture

Mental condition: I DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL

Sometimes it seems fine, sometimes I just want to die

Pain and tears? Anytime, anywhere!

Also, I want to stab myself almost all the time.

And WOW ITS 6 NOW I HAVE TOTALLY NO IDEA

And I’m definitely nocturnal (I plucking love this word), since a single light in day time is just too bright for me