so. Lighty and I are planning to end our current tenancy and move into a new place

our tenancy ends on the 20th of March and we would like to get a place before that so we aren't being shovelled out

but also, a bunch of places I've enquired to either go to let agreed way before I can even get a viewing or they won't accept us in the basis that neither of us is full time employed.

I've got to the point where I am simply stating that I am self-employed and not specifying on the first round, but after that they ask for our annual income and its... not great

I mean, with everything it comes to like, 15-17k pa between the two of us, or in layman's terms... less than a single person working full time minimum wage makes a year

and I want to make my self-employement work I really do, but I'm not entirely sure if I can? I am stuck between feeling like I'm being incredibly lazy and the next is paralysing anxiety.

I know that should we get a place within our means, we can cover it no worries. probably.

it's just getting there in the first place.

with less than a month to secure our living situation, I can't help but feel the bees

oh I should have locked this to friends only but welp

i just. I'm not sure what to do. I have an appointment with the DWP on the 7th where I'm going to ask if any help can be given re:renting/securing a property but

the other option is for me to go back unto full time work which with my current physical and mental health, I'm not sure is possible

like I got lectured by an old friend about how she 'doesn't want to see my potential wasted' but with the way it's all going I'll end up stocking shelves ad infinitum

and like. Idk at this point I'm not entirely sure what potential she sees :')

don't get me wrong. I know it's 2.30 in the am and I should never trust how I feel about life after 9pm and all that

I feel very lost and unmoored, and lighty can't help me financially because she's unable to hold down a job

not to mention that my old place of employment who I was with part time has just told me he can't afford to have me even once a week anymore, so that's a solid amount of my income gone tok

ah, hospitality my old friend.
I mean if this is what it takes then this is what it takes I suppose.
this time, at least, I'll know what I'm getting Into, and I'll aim for night shifts.