Whenever i am supposed to be doing something....art/work/tags but i can’t focus, i like, subconsciously just, bite my nails/pick at my nail beds

OBSESSIVELY

And the WORST worst thing is that it is a habit that when i was trying out ADHD medication it made it worse

Because i basically was like, hyperfocusing

I have like a really frustrating thing where i have like, NOT OCD, but just enough OCD traits overlapping with ADHD and they kind of trigger each other in these very specific loops

So i will be trying to focus and then, my brain is like ‘no, first we need to adress this tiny flaw in your nail bed that is very distracting’
And then 30 mins later, I’ve done nothing

RINSE AND REPEAT

that sounds so frustrating 😩

It really is

aughhh that sucks

I havent really found a good solution yet besides just WILLPOWER, which obv has a lot of limitations

would maybe those gloves that let you type help? so you can’t see your nails while trying to start the thing

er, let you type on a phone I mean. ig you can type on any mechanical keyboard with gloves jfjsjf

MAYBE, at least for some stuff....i use a touch screen for most of my work though, but perhaps for certain things it could help at least disrupt the habit

the only solution ive ever found to stop myself from picking at things is bandaids, but im pretty sure that would be a hindrance for art

I DO do that sometimes, but yeah, it’s not ideal with art. It’s good sometimes though!

yeah there are some neat gloves that let you operate touch screens! lemme see if I can find them

It’s a very passive thing that is sometimes better, sometimes worse, and often sneaks up on me and then I’m like DAMN IT (having already wasted a lot of time)

https://www.amazon.com/.... there’s a bunch here, tho idk if these would be useful for art purposes either

when you need your fingers free maybe smth like nail stickers could make it harder to pick?

These are good suggestions for certain cases! It is tricky being an artist, i do really need my hands totally free when I’m working for the mostly part

The bigger problem is this is a like a dumb thing that makes ADHD medication really backfire on me (because it cranks the like OBSESSIVE part up to 11)

oof

yeah thats less. ideal.

I mostly get along without medication so it’s not the end of the world, and maybe i could try a different one someday!

my brother found one that works pretty good for him, and you guys have like

the Same brand of adhd/ocd

i'll ask him when he's here next weekend.

yea that would be good!

sobs i hate picking at my nails... my cuticles/skin around my nails hate me for it, THEY DO NOT KNOW PEACE

this is

literally what's happening to me rn lol

that's what the last plurk i made was about

more of my nails are infected than not at the moment because of it

derkins: nijikai: YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND. No nice cuticles or happy nailbed for me

I do wonder sometimes if like, i should get my nails done sometimes? Like, to incentivize not biting them or anything like that. Even just having polish on my nails sometimes helps mentally deter

But i haven’t tried that in a long time

ohhh I do this all the time

nail polish definitely helps for a while

I also bandage my thumbs

My thumb is so infected from my picking that I’m going to the doctor today

I’m so damn stupid lol

Ughhh nooo im so sorry

when my nail biting was bad, putting on polish definitely discouraged me bc 1) taste bad 2) dont wanna ruin it