oh bite me.why dont just kill me.
sincerely pray for the train accident and all the people inexplicably survive except me. I do really pray hard on this but never seem to work.guess law of attraction never work on me.ha.

I feel and act like a pathetic teenager even though I am way to old to live like this. but I hate my life and everything suck I wish a Russian roulette game occur on me and I am the lucky one.suicide is a betrayal, but traffic accident or a massacre on me
-hey that could be a totally different story.
no guilty quick pain massive compensation, ideal death.

the world outside is bright and sunny,but that still doesn't stop me from the eager of being dead.but on the other hand,medical chemical cant either.
so that seems reasonable. I feel sad for myself and my family.