I really just want to scream and throw things. I am so pissed off and I feel so uncared for and fucking used right now.

And I still have to spend today trying to figure out how to go further into debt.

I feel like a ghost.
But apparently asking for emotional support, being able to talk about my feelings, and occasional physical contact is 'asking someone to mold themselves to my needs'

Apparently wanting the help I actually need instead of the help they want to give me is too demanding, idk

I'm barely functional
Been on the edge of a breakdown for days not that anyone's noticed but Aiko

I'm so tired and stressed and after the last few days of having nearly no interaction with people outside of work I just feel alone af

I'm struggling against a full blown bout of mutism

I'm on a Xanax right now but I'm still trembling and my lips feel stiff

I guess I feel more like an ATM than a ghost.

I'm probably going home for tonight. I've been trying not to for Reasons but I don't think I can handle being where I am tonight. Or I guess more like I can't handle waking up here tomorrow morning.

sorry you feel that way. hope you feel better

/leans against

/Hugs...