For those of you wondering what is going on with Saul, I will tell. Saul is thinking back on his past, what he's done and how he's hurt others. He regrets all of it deeply but doesn't think he deserves to be helped. He's thinking he's messed up too badly and what if he gets brought back and doesn't change?

His older brother Chuck killed himself because he did everything he could to bring him down to his level and ruin his name. Saul just wanted to make his brother proud of him but Chuck never thought Saul could get past being a conman. Saul has a feeling he's right

Howard Hamlin was killed in front of Saul and Kim in their home by Lalo Salamanca. Saul feels fully responsible for this. He thinks he pushed Howard to the point of anger that he would come to his home to berate him and Kim. That's why Howard was there in the first place.

Saul got involved with Lalo despite knowing it wouldn't end well. He got involved with Lalo for the same reason he got involved with Walter White: He was greedy and fearful for his own life. Mostly greed though

Greed was the main driving point in everything Saul Goodman has done. He worries that he may never change. He hasn't changed yet, he's worried he wont change now

He’s wondering if deserves the second chance. Is it wasted on him? Who knows