It's nice being in a smaller game, a lot less stressful and therefore a lot more fun.

I don't have any grand ambitions for Charles or Nat, they're both just vibing so far, even if the vibe for CFO means Info Gather Mode.

I even found myself thinking about muses I haven't touched in a while, and just going "Yeah that was fun" instead of "I wish I still played them", which is a nice shift

So I guess this is just a short and sweet "happy where I'm at, rp is back to being a fun hobby instead of a source of stress".

Life away from the computer is still changing all the damn time, and old anxiety brain Does Not Like, but ... anxiety brain is full of shit, because these changes are awesome

And I've been embracing going with the flow, which in itself is new and awesome, refining things, leaving behind old habits that don't serve me anymore (especially the old ADHD "one thing went wrong and now we do nothing all day")

A friend of mine gave me a button that says "no longer available for things that make me feel like shit" and it's a heckin' mood. A new coworker did something that made me uncomfortable and not only did I say something to them, but to my supe when they didn't get why it was gross. Past Hazel would have just shut up and let it fester all day.

(said incident was co-worker asking me if I wanted to see her daughter's cat ... then sharing a picture where said 20something daughter holding the cat was in an extremely minimalist bikini)

(ma'am that is not okay even if you think your daughter would want total strangers seeing that)

She also asked if my name was My Real Name which uh