allen

And you still were working earlier. Shucks.

you work so much

I know. But you know what bothers me? It's when people in the org sing my praises when I myself don't feel I've done anything of substance

it doesn't sit right with me for some reason. People will think I'm so worthy and whatever when that's the farthest thing from the truth.

why don't you feel like that you're doing is worthwhile?

it's not that i don't think it's worthwhile... more that I feel I haven't accomplished anything that deserves such esteem yet.

you set some really high standards for yourself, don't you?

... well i don't see it that way. but suppose they are high standards. isn't that a good thing?

knows what you mean, though, forallyouknow. I feel like I'm living my life like that, and I don't know whose lauds to believe anymore.

it's frustrating, isn't it? I'm petrified whenever I think of how I ought to react.

And you never want to consider anyone's compliments. Kahit na yung nagmamahal sa'yo. Anong tawag mo sa sarili mo?

:|

Hindi sa never. It's just hard to weed out the insincere ones sometimes.

Edi gawin mo silang motivation para maintindihan sarili mong kakayahan. Kahit na insincere, nasabi na nila. Di nila puedeng ibawi yun.

Di nga pwedeng bawiin. Nakinabang ka ba?

NR na lang ako.

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