turbulent times here, very confused and tired these days

Rejected from both my Japanese applications....broken up

Hm, had an interesting (good?) experience today, I really am not good at surprises it seems

one week to hand in my dissertation first draft - research not yet complete, oops

so good news, I woke up at 5:30am for a change, bad news is I still only got 4 hours, which I usually average in a day when I collapse

f*** that's twice i've tipped tea everywhere in 15 minutes

Another rejection from agents...the joys

feeling unnaturally energetic

second intense workout in 3 days, covered both cardio and muscle this time, feel like I'm gonna hurl...

the words aren't coming today