why are cats like this

loki is nuzzling me and he is Mystery Wet

might eat some lunch n go geocaching i already found one today

its worse that i had to effectively close myself off and tried to ignore everyone in my system bcs i felt afraid of talking to anyone abt it after my ex called me crazy the only time i spoke up

its probably the overlap of plurality and paranoia. its a difficult combination to be comorbid with. and ik its not just me that struggles with it either knowing several of us also deal with that heavy paranoia as a result

i love everyone in my system a lot and appreciate them but i wont lie, sometimes i get freaked out by it all knowing that ill just always be like this unless i seek permanent fusion, which. i dont want to do. doesnt make it any less strange though, imo

yesterday i was lighthearted abt it but i wont lie, sometimes plurality will give me the worst kind of dread. i wake up and i remember "oh yeah im not alone in my body" and that fact wrecks me for a while

oh god if we close alone tonight i might scream, sundays are so terrible for closing

turns out chipotle gouda cheese is spicy to us

big surprise, when its more than just angel, marik, and i stumbling around the deli alone, things get done