shouldnt miss everything. then what am I suppose to choose??!! Split myself into three?! Study is important. But those are important too. ==

First class of intensive course tomorrow. Shouldnt miss. Concert. Great chance. Shouldnt miss. Support Alison & watch dances. Shouldnt miss.

why everything comes on the same day?! when there's no event it's like totally no event. but when there's it's like it all comes together

does not know what to choose. GAAH should I go for intensive class or go support Alison or go concert. Meeh

I dont know how you really want things to work. neither do I myself. but we're giving each other chances right? But we're back to square one

but sometimes I feel really really good and very happy. My terrible days were cheered up by you. And all of that makes me feel confusing.

would you make things clear? Sometimes it feels like I'm fooled. Sometimes it feels like I'm spoiling it. Sometimes I feel really really bad

you're so freaking great cuz you made me started it all again. WHY?? It's so easy to be moved, but it's so hard to leave again.

I've really decided to stop. and I really did stop for quite some time. Why am I doing all this again? Sigh

knows something's really wrong with her stomach & she needs to see a doctor. It's almost a year now that the stomach is being like that. TT