when i see you; i feel like i am a useless person then i remember; you do that to all people, which is sad

Sponge Cola - Geminithen there it goes; wooooooooooooooosh!

memories came in a sudden flashback & i can't do anything, i just stand here realizing that i was & am alone until you came but, yah, we are long drifted apart, longer as we both can remember

i really want to feel really really sick ('cause I am) but there's a voice at the back of my head shouting: "YAH! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?! WRITE! YOU SHOULD WRITE!!!"

'cause I still believe what Stitch said about his Ohana: "...nobody gets left behind" I hope she'll realize that too soon enough.

Now I understand my grandma & my aunt for a reason, she doesn't really want us huh?! That sucks a lot dude! A LOT!

maybe she really hates the family & she had always felt that we are dragging her or something, i don't know, either way she should've told us. We will understand it anyway

feeling down again...

So yah, she is an atheist, apparently, but i don't get it why she should rub it on other people's faces. Let me add this: why should she curse everyday like that's the means of her survival?

a year ago, i definitely know where I wanted to take my life. Today, i feel FUCKED up and clueless. I'm lost. VERY LOST