but i am not totally helpless. i feel like winning this dispute. i have the remarkable cure of this pessimism... my best friends

i'm in an emotional crisis right now. feeling lonely and forlorn. happiness peeled off over me. i got third degree burns all over my soul.

i am just so empty.

Ding, finish na naho ang books. iuli na to naho. when man ta mag dine together mga PCDs!

i feel kinda alright amid the pandemonium of my mind and heart.

am i just away from friends? do they really have to know how stable i am with these consequences? would they really care?

like Rosalie...I rather stay human so that i could refine this tenacity in me by crying all these anguish out.

now i know what kind of person Rosalie is. I find myself in her shoes right now.

i am spiritually drowned in the doom of my being consciously alive. so many questions asked which myself couldn't find answers.

you know what? im feelin like a real vamp now. so much pain but could never cry a tear.