I'm still really sad about many things, but I'm moving forward on my own terms.
    
     
        Today, I applied to graduate.
    
     
        In the end, I learned many lessons the only way I could have learned them best--the hard way. Through bitter loss and vicious regret, I clenched my teeth and adapted.
    
     
   
        5:10 AM. Sleepless and angry. "worst realizations"
    
     
        train, train! THE BLUE HEARTS
    
      
        posture and body composition suffering