yep failed them big time, would declare myself bankrupt at my age and I dunno what to do but thankful for parents as well... I don't deserve it

bday just went by but I have been crying since Tuesday... technically, I don't get excited anymore, unlike when I was younger. I'm always thankful reaching this age, but this year feels like a midlife crisis blowing on my face, hai wanna escape reality

I skipped work for 5 days now ... not feeling right know and i got bills to pay pa haist. My mental health is not doing goos right now

I miss my old self, the laziness i have at 35 is unbelievable... I am my worst enemy

Jan 2024 is tougher than I imagined... started the year with lots of negativity *sigh

Not sure what i want, to disappear and never return or to restart somewhere far from here... i hate my brain sometimes, i skipped work yesterday coz of it

So yeah been months but life has been kind i guess, took a big role at work, my dream for overseas is still in the looms and bts is going to the military ha!

Mother is right though, in my 30s and nothing doing about it, no shortcuts jud ni

I’m pathetic but enough signs na oi and yes I’m jealous again

Hai give me strength