barusan ngetwit di lapak sebelah, kemudian cek, pas banget Claude lagi down. ga pernah-pernahnya.

oh, memangnya kalau ga ada Claude atau Copilot terus ga bisa ngapa-ngapain, begitu. enak aja. eh tapi ini topik eksistensial juga sih. hm.

#TIL Audemars Piguet Royal Oak. ternyata bentuknya mirip (atau menginspirasi?) G-Shock yang biasa kupakai sehari-hari. huh.

(tapi ga pengen punya juga sih Royal Oak juga)

I think it's safe to say that AI won't fully replace programming jobs in near future. It does things fast, but the reasoning is often flawed. It even confidently asserted a root cause for some concurrency bug . . .

. . . that sounded almost right . . .

. . . if I didn't have good enough fundamental to say otherwise. huh.

to find out (and admit), but even with managing food and exercise, it seems that I haven't been taking good enough sleep in the past months. kind of baffling, but also kind of makes sense at the same time.

that explains things I guess. and that changes today.

Someone Hertz pekan ini, sungguh #mood pada siang ini. sungguh eksistensial.

sedikit menggelembung temyata. menyebalkan sekali.

I keep saying one day I'll be good enough, I'll grow stronger, I'll be better in every way. but in the end I'm just... here. why can't I?

the more I deep dive into cognitive psychology and how the brain actually works, the more I think we are living against broken systems of knowledge work. human brain is not designed for 8+ hours of deep cognitive work...

and we intuitively know that. that's why we have e.g. coffee breaks. so why do people pretend otherwise?

don't give up, me. don't give up on me.

(I won't, I know)
(it just doesn't feel like that at times)

bangun pagi, olahraga pagi. kemudian cek seminggu terakhir. 7-day RHR konsisten 46-49 bpm. kelihatannya bagus juga seperti itu...

kadang juga bertanya-tanya apakah aku sudah benar-benar tumbuh. mungkin. entah. walaupun rasanya tidak selalu seperti itu.

getting home feeling tired after, well, being a grown-up today. I don't know, I just don't feel like laughing or smiling around this time today I guess.

I don't know, really. maybe say something.