double plurk. Frankenstein is the most beautiful movie. I cried. watch it. the little ghost that scares the blood around my body is happy. maybe spoilers will happen. tread carefully.

im going on vacation. be back the 17th. yay me!

while I am still fully in stressed the fuck out mode, I got an invite today to a private event on Monday with our CEO for recognition for my work on this implementation. only 5 leaders on the project were invited. I am equal parts I fucking deserve this and holy shit im nervous....how will I not swear for several hours with my CEO????

/collapses

24. Hours. /screams into the void. y'all, I have never in my life worked this hard. never accomplished as much as I have. never learned this much. and im still scared af. Healthcare IT is kinda scary, if my team fucked anything up...we could contribute to actually hurting people. its this extra level of stress. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

friends. I am struggling. to the point that I want to give you all permission to move forward without me in RP however you see fit. we have played together long enough you know what you can do. I trust you all.

this meme has inspired an idea. ash releases the Epstien files and has to hide out in Lupus for a while till shit calms down. also, tax evasion cause fuck the government.

butterflied bea is a hoe for the spiced cake doggo treats. you are too sweet.

only thing worth celebrating this weekend is that The Old Guard 2 is out.

Tuesday is my 60 day go live readiness assessment. at the grand ballroom at a fancy hotel downtown in front of 1200 people. this marks the start of 2 months of hell. but im gonna survive it friends. the alternative is that I fail. fuck that. im still scared AF and next level stressed out.